Second Best(2yeon/Najeong version)

Talks about disturbances

Nayeon

Jinyoung and I walk toward the back of the house where Jackson and Mark are standing, Jackson shifts and I smother the urge to punch him in the face" No one thought a heads up would be a good idea?" I spit the words" No one thought I should know this? Did your cell phones all die? Because I can't think of any reason why you all wouldn't want to tell me."

" Nayeon" Mark steps toward me" First of all none of us knew is it was definitely Jinyoung Secondly we couldn't compromise the mission this all had to happen very secretly and very covertly and what did you want us to call on the way over? No one knew how to handle this."

Jackson takes a hesitant footstep" I know you were getting your life together I know you were happy and for that I am sorry no one here would want to hurt you least of all me."

" Sure you are sorry" Anger flows through me tearing me apart.

His head bows then he turns to Jinyoung" we should let you guys talk remember what I said about a lot changing in a year but I am glad you are home."

Jinyoung looks at me before turning back to Jackson" I appreciate it I am happy to be back with my girls."

The last few months rush back I remember how I felt finding out about his transgressions how he loved another woman my mind starts to wonder if he means me and Emma or me and Jisoo.

I can't listen to this I need to get a grip on what the hell is festering inside of me there are so many things I am feeling all at once I walk down onto the beach the sand burning my feet and I welcome the pain I stand still lifting my head to the sky. Why? I ask the clouds this should be a happy moment One filled with hugs and tears of joy but I am left feeling as if a gaping hole was punched through my chest just when I thought my life was on track- boom.

My mind drifts to Jeongyeon and how devasted she was her eyes lost the spark I loved to see I don't know where my life will go- once again there are no easy answers in this situation I have a husband, a bay, a girlfriend and suddenly a shit load of problems btu I need her to see that I meant what I said I want her beside me.

" Are we going to talk?" I hear Jinyoung ask from behind me the raspy voice that once made me long for him now makes me want to cry.

I turn as he stands still waiting for something from me" No I'd rather not I feel like I am about to wake up any moment so I am just waiting for it to happen all of this is so confusing" I reply and wish I could slap myself.

Jinyoung steps forward" Nay" his voice trembles" I am here."

" You keep saying that but how? How is this happening? I take a moment to look over his face his brown eyes are dull and lifeless there's a large gash on the side of his neck, my eyes travel down his arms where there are a few scares from what look like burns and he's missing a finger on his left hand he looks broken and alone but then he smiles at me and I try to stop my heart from swelling a little.

" All I could think about was seeing my girls" he steps closer" I fought to be here for you."

" For me? Really?" I question not actually wanting an answer Jinyoung looks at me with confusion. Well I'll be happy to clue him in" Are you sure its me you want Jinyoung or do you want me to call Jisoo?" I ask shooting daggers at him, I stand watching his reactions I catalog the way he shifts to the side and the way he grips the back of his neck.

I see the fear flare in his eyes and if I hadn't known him for most of my life I'd have missed it.

" Its not-"

"Not what I think?"

Jinyoung takes another step closer as his face pales" I love you I have always loved you."