Depression

Shit

Atsushis pov :
He woke up with the sun on his face.
He sat up and felt the warmth from the sun.
He felt almost happy.
He gets up and heads to work.
Not noticing his appearance he walks in.
All heads turn toward him
He felt out of place he could feel every eye on him like a knife on his back.
"Atsushi are you alright?"
He had never seen Dazai more concerned.
"Yes and why is everyone staring at me ?"
"Atsushi you have bags under your eyes and have you lost weight like a lot ?"
"I don't know maybe I really didn't realize how I looked."
He was lying he knew exactly how he looked .
Because he felt it.
"Atsushi can you come to my office I wanna check you out please"
"Is that really nesissary Yosano?"
"Yes Atsushi is it"
He jumped not noticing the principal was standing behind him.
He followed Yasano to her room having a bad feeling about why is about to happen.
"Ok Atsushi have a seat , have you been eating properly?"
"I don't know what is properly?"
"Well three meals a day all healthy and desert"
"Sort of I've had at least 2 a day I think "
"And why is that is it a money issue or mental issue?"
"After the orphanage I guess it is hard sometimes"
He wasn't lying after all the abuse he's been through its part of why the voice is there.
"Ok so you have difficulty eating that's a start and how do you feel after you've eaten or does it come back up"
"Well I feel bad about it but apart from that it's fine I guess"
"so you feel you shouldn't have had it ok. And do you mind taking your shirt off so I can see your size?"
He was now starting to panic.
"No"
Yasano stared at him trying to process what to say next.
"Ok do you have a reason you don't want to take it off ?"
"sort of I guess"
"Does it have something to do with how you look ?"
" A little"
"Ok you wait here I'm gonna go grab something Kay "
Atsushi noddes.
Yasanos pov :
She walks out and goes back to the group who are worried about Atsushi.
"Is he ok?"
Kunikida is the first to speak.
"He won't take his shirt off and I need to look at him"
"Why won't he take it off?"
The president buts in.
"He may be suffering from an eating disorders caused by his life at the orphanage,I'm guessing he won't take it off because hes self conscious which I get "
"Is that is?"
Ronpo says from his desk.
"Well since he has an eating disorder he could also be suffering from other mental health disorders. His life at the orphanage was traumatising and that can cause damage but the main this is I need him to take his shirt off"
"Can't you put his to sleep or something "
Dazai commented .
"That would work but I need him to breath in the chemical and he won't do that "
"Want some help then I could talk to him or something"
"Yeah ok come on Dazai wish us luck "
Her and Dazai both went back to Atsushi.
But when they got back he was asleep on the bed.
"Oh piece of cake "
Yasano hooked him up to the machine whick put him to sleep.
Once he was put under she took off his shirt.
But they couldn't believe what they have seen.