Depression

No one needa to know

Atsushis pov :
He snuck away from Dazai to go to the bathroom.
He got there and locked the door behind him.
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He knelt down Infront of the toilet.
Shoving two fingers down his throat.
Gagging and coughing till there was nothing left.
Saliva flowing from his mouth to his fingers he washed his hands and left.
Returning back to the coach then falling asleep.
No one needs to know hes done this because it will probably be his last.
The next morning
Atsushis pov :
Atsushi woke up to Dazai shaking him and asking him something.
"What?"
"Can chu chu and Aku come after work they want to see you ?"
"Yeah that's fine I better get ready"
Dazai have him a thumbs up .
Atsushi left and got changed I to his work clothes.
Feeling a little nervous because everyone is gonna have questions or just stare at him.
Dazai knocked on his bedroom door telling him they needed to go .
"Ok coming "
They both left and walked to work.
Atsushi stopped at the door to the agency.
"I don't think I can go in Dazai "
"Why not ?"
"They are all going to stare at me . "
"Of course they are everyone stares at people who walkthrough the door then they'll get back to their work ok I promise"
Dazai was right because the day before everyone at the agency had a meeting saying not to treat him any differenty then before and everyone agreed.
And so him and Dazai walk through the door.
"Morning you two "
Kunikida says from his desk.
"Morning kunikida "
Atsushi says before walking to his desk.
Dazai was right nothing different happened to what normally would happen in a day.
Apart from his time with Yasano.
"Atsushi darling can you come with me please?"
"Yeah of course"
Atsushi followed Yasano to her office room.
"So I'm going to ask you a few questions Atsushi is that ok ?"
He nodded.
"Ok so when I removed your shirt you had scars and cuts all over your torso and arms .
Were they self Inflicted?"
"Yes they were"
"Ok can you tell me why and when you did that Atsushi?"
"Well I can't remember why but a few weeks ago I think."
"Ok and your eating habits were you aware you had a disorder before I told you ?"
"I guess I did yeah"
"Why do you guess"
"No other people struggle the way I do so I figured it out"
"Can we talk more about your struggle ?"
"Yeah ok "
"So do you struggle with the getting to eat or do you struggle keeping it down"
"Both "
"Ok and do you force yourself to throw up because that's a common factor "
"sometime yeah "
"Kay and when you do that what's going through your head?"
"It's like someone screaming at me to do it and if I don't it gets worse"
"how long has this been happening Atsushi?"
"A few months "
" Can you get on the scales for me Atsushi?"
"No I'm ok "
" Ok we're try again another time you can go now and I'll be sure to help you ok "
"Ok"
"Oh and Dazai is going to be supervising you aswell"
"Ok"
He then left and returned to his work.
He didn't want supervision he didn't need it .
Or that's what he thought.