Depression

According to plan

Dazais pov :
"Atsushi this is very serious are you sure your ok ?"
Atsushi looks up slowly .
"Yeah I'm fine really I can barely remember it "
Atsushis pov :
That was a lie .
He could still feel his hands on his body and the noises he made.
He felt sick stopping himself from gagging.
No one had really noticed but Atsushi never hugged or touched anyone and never let anyone touch him .
He was snapped out of his trance by Aktugawa who asked a question.
"Do you know where he is now as in this headmaster guy ?"
"No once I left I lost all contact not that I needed any "
He laughed a little remembering all the younger children who bullied him.
"Did you have any fiends Atsushi at the orphanage?"
"No Dazai I was locked in a bared room away from everyone apart from when they let the children come throw stuff at me"
"And they allowed that ?!"
"Yeah but oh well to be honest it wasn't so bad I would rather be here then in there so I'm glad I got kicked out"
"That's the spirit Atsushi !"
Dazai says while pulling Atsushi into a hug.
Atsushi didn't really know what to do so he sat there.
"Anyone hungry I went shopping yesterday for you Atsushi"
Dazai yells while letting Atsushi go and running to the kitchen.
Chuuya and Aktugawa agreed they were hungry.
Then they all looked at Atsushi.
He still felt sick from the last time he ate .
"I'm ok but you guys go ahead"
Atsushi tried to go to his room but rashomom was blocking it.
"When was the last time you ate jinko?"
"Yesterday but-"
"No buts Atsushi come on let's all eat together like a happy family"
Obviously Dazai said that Aktugawa Could never.
Atsushi gave in because he knew he wouldn't win.
They all ate and it was nice to eat together and he was happy he had such a caring family.
Everything went well Chuuya and Aktugawa went home while Dazai stayed.
Dazai watched Atsushi brush his teeth just in case.
"You need a new toothbrush Atsushi that is horrid"
"It's that bad"
Atsushi had an idea a horrible one but it would work for him.
He brushed his teeth making it look like he was stopping but near the end he shoved the brush closer to his throat.
Dazai was standing in the door way reading a book so he wasn't paying to much attention.
Atsushi continue this until he gagged hard.
"Atsushi you ok over there-"
His head was in the toilet removing everything from his system.
He finally stopped and Dazai made sure he was alright.
"I caught the back of my throat with my stupid toothbrush that thing has bristles everywhere!"
He was lying.
"I told you to get a new one and I was right you go to bed I'm getting rid of that thing"
Atsushi went to bed feeling empty.
He was snuggled up happy his plan worked .
But also felt guilty that Dazai is worrying .
He says night and shoes to sleep .
He has work in the morning .