Depression

Complicated

Tw ⚠️ - ed / emetophobia
Atsushis pov :
He sat at his desk wondering if he had effected any other people by showing his skin .
Dazai walked back in looking angry.
Atsushi went the test of the day feeling down .
"Atsushi your ok right don't need anyone to talk to ?"
"I'm ok Yosano . Dazai is with me anyway "
She gives him a nodd and he walks home.
Dazais finished work a little later so he walked by himself.
He got in and to his surprise no one was there .
For the first time in weeks he's by himself.
He doesn't know if the others are aware .
He doesn't know what to do .
He turns the TV on and just lays on the couch.
But that voice is still in the back of his head .
'YOU GAINED A POUND GET RIF OF IT '
He had no one to talk him out of it .
Tw ⚠️ :
He goes to the bathroom and locks the door .
He kneels down shoving two fingers down his throat .
His throat bubbling then removing all that was inside.
He takes a deep breath.
Then cleaned up .
Tw ⚠️ over :
He makes his way back to the couch .
The door opened seconds later .
Talk about good timing .
Dazai walked in with Aktugawa and Chuuya.
"You've been here by yourself ?"
"Obviously "
They sit down and watch the TV .
They chat about random things and laugh .
The night went well and Atsushi went to bed .
Next morning still Atsushi :
He woke up to Dazai banging on the door .
"We need to go soon ok "
"Ok "
He gets dressed and walks out to the kitchen .
"You want something to eat ?"
"No I'm ok "
"Ok but you have to later "
Atsushi nodds and they head to work.
It was a smooth day and Ranpo said he would help more on the murder case .
He was bribed of course.
Atsushi was starting to feel really good not realising how fast it will come crashing down .
Kunikida had been on the phone for a good while .
The others noticing how agitated he was getting .
Looking at his computer getting more mad .
He hangs up the phone and takes a deep breath.
"Atsushi I need to talk to you now "
He followed kunikida to the president's office .
"Atsushi are you aware of why your here ?"
He looks at the president confused.
"No have I done something wrong ?"
"Is doing drugs wrong Atsushi ?"
He looks at kunikida.
"What ?"
"I got a call saying you have been spotted on jul occasions doing drugs . And I will say I didn't believe it into they sent us photos evident of you doing them with some men in an alley"
Kunikida sounded mad .
Atsushi didn't say anything .
"Well when did you first do it ?"
'should I uncover my lie '
"A few months ago I think "
"And why did you think it was a good idea ?"
"I never said it was a good idea . I was sad  and alone so I done it"
"When did you last do it ?"
"Last week after me and Ranpo had that fight "
"You said you went home "
"That was a lie I didn't I went home to shower "
"Ok . Atsushi you do understand this is more serious than a cigarette every weeks "
"Yes I understanding"
"I think it's best we send you home until we can figure this out . We also need to dear you house incase you have any there "
"I didn't own any I've done it like twice "
"That's not the point the point is you've done it . Go home Atsushi we'll get someone to take you-"
"I can walk home "
He storms out the office .
"Atsushi wait !"
Kunikida screams from the door .
Atsushi ignores him and starts running home .
'why did I have to go and make this so complicated'