Depression

Doesn't matter

Next morning
Atsushis pov :
He was woken up by Yasano coming in to check on him.
He felt like shit.
His body aches, massive headache and he felt like throwing up.
"You feeling ok Atsushi you look a little pale?"
He attempted to nod but stopped because it made his headache worse.
"If your up to it you can go home today but again Dazai is stating to make sure your alright"
"That's fine "
He managed to squeeze out before Dazai came barging in.
"Good morning Atsushi are you ready to go home? , Are you feeling ok you look horrible "
"Thanks I'm fine just need to go home I'm sick of this room to be honest"
Dazai giggled.
Atsushi didn't have much so he and Dazai went back to his house .
They got back and Atsushi went straight to the kitchen and got some medicine not noticing the two mafia members in his living room.
"Well hello to you to Jinko"
Aktugawa says in a sarcastic tone.
Atsushi immediately turns around and sees them.
"Oh hi you guys sorry I didn't notice I have a bit of a headache still"
He joined the three on the couch.
"Still ?"
Chuuya questions removing his hat.
"I had it yesterday aswell but I'm fine do you guys need anything ?"
"No Atsushi we're fine go to sleep or something you just came back"
Dazai says shoving atsushis head on the couch and hearing a slight 'ow' from his head hitting the couch.
"Ops forgot you had a headache your be fine"
Atsushi soon fell asleep.
"Are you sure he's fine he's almost as pale as Aktugawa"
Chuuya asks in a concerned voice.
"To be honest I'm not sure but we're fine out soon enough because his headache will get better or turn into something else"
The others agreed and watched TV.
Everything was fine and dandy until there was a strange sound .
They all looked over to the  tiger boy who was crying in his sleep.
"No mmmmm donmmm"
"What did he say ?"
Aktugawa asks trying to make out what the boy was saying.
The others shrugged and listened closer to what he was saying.
"No don't hurt me ! I didn't do anything wrong im sorry headmaster "
They all looked at eachother and waited for the boy to wake up.
It's been an hour and Atsushi was starting to wake up.
"Hiya Atsushi feeling any better ?"
Dazai asks staring at Atsushi.
"Yeah I feel fine now-"
He stopped mid sentence to wipe his face confused to why it was damp.
"You were crying in you sleep again"
"Again so that had happened before"
Atsushi wasn't aware he was crying in real life he thought it was only a memory.
"Do you think you could tell us what was upsetting you ?"
Chuuya asks before putting his hat back on.
"Just my life whilst at the orphanage as you can imagine it wasn't the best and the headmaster hated me "
"And did the headmaster ever do anything?"
Atsushi got up and walked to the kitchen and got water but talked on his way.
"He would beat me all the time and tell me the world would be better off without me but he got all the others to join aswell after a while you believe what your being told but it wasn't to bad apart from one time but - it doesn't matter"
He comes and sits back down with his water.
"What did he do Atsushi because it does matter"
Aktugawa says .
Atsushi was staring at the floor.
"He raped me "
Those word shocked them they knew he was abused but that was grotesque.
"But I'm fine so it doesn't matter "