Depression

Leave me alone

Atsushis pov :
yosano had just left leaving Atsushi alone.
'what am I going to do they are gonna find out and everything is gonna go wrong !
Omg I'm stressing out and I feel tired and ill I think I'm gonna pass out'
So many thoughts were rushing round his head at once.
His breathing quickened , eyes darting round the room and he was sweating like crazy .
He thinks he was putting his inner cheek but he couldn't tell.
His head felt light and he passed out moments before Yosano and Dazai walks in.
Dazais pov :
'i knew something was wrong with Atsushi but I didn't expect something like this '
Him and Yosano walked in and saw Atsushi on the bed.
' oh he's asleep that's makes life easier'
"Piece of cake "
Yosano says breaking the awkward silence.
She then proceeds to remove Atsushis shirt.
Time stopped after that.
What they saw shocked them.
Not only was he skin and bone he was covered in scars some old some new.
Dazai couldn't speak .
Yosano expected this and went to get the others.
The others joined and were all shocked by what they saw.
Some cried and others didn't say a word.
Soon they left Atsushi to rest and to talk when he wakes up.
All left except one.
Atsushis pov :
He wakes up to the light being to bright and nearly blinding him.
And the occasional sound of medical equipment.
He blinked a few times before sitting up .
Being face to face with Dazai.
"Why didn't you tell us you were struggling?"
Atsushi couldn't think of an answer so all he did was shrug.
Tears filled his eyes but he didn't let them fall.
"Does everyone know?"
His voice calm but not at the same time.
"Yes Atsushi"
"Oh"
He sat there thinking of what to do.
"Can I go now ?"
He says staring at the ceiling.
Dazai is shocked he was just found to have so many 'problems' but wanted to go.
"No Atsushi I don't think you understand how serious this is you have put your self at risk"
"You don't think I know that"
His voice was dead all he wanted was to disappear .
"Your gonna be monitored every day by me or any of the other staff"
"Your making it sound like I'm in some mental hospital"
Dazai senced the mood and said bye before leaving.
"The others are gonna come and question you soon ok so you can be ready"
Atsushi started to cry now he was alone not needing to hide his pain.
The crying got worse and worse until he was an utter mess.
Yosano came in trying to calm his down.
"Atsushi are you ok ?"
"Do I fucking look ok to you , I want to go home !"
Yosano knowing she was gonna get nothing out of his decided he could go home as long as Dazai went with him.
He said his byes getting pitty looks from everyone which made his feel like shit.
Him and Dazai headed back to Atsushis house.
As soon as they got in Atsushi went straight to his room.
"Leave me alone"