Depression

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Atsushis pov :
His head was spinning .
Shaking uncontrollably .
His breathing out of control , unsure of everything.
Tears returning in his eyes he broke down in tears .
Everyone just watched as the poor tiger boy cried .
Pitty .
That's all they could do .
Eventually he passed out because he had used up so much energy.
Dazai took him home .
Chuuya and Aktugawa were going to stop by later.
Dazais pov :
He stood there watching the events of atsushis life .
He never knew it was like this.
Turning around he saw everyone's faces .
They were filled with shock.
Dazai have had enough.
Running he jumped and disabled her ability.
She fell limp as Atsushi hit the floor.
He looked so sad his eyes were dead.
Everyone watching him stand and say
"Just look at me the same"
Before breaking down .
Everyone looked away not baring to see him like this.
He passed out and Dazai takes him home.
Worry is the only feeling Dazai felt at this moment.

He gets in and places Atsushi to bed.
He leaves trying to give him the rest he needs.
After 10 minutes he heard crying and whimpering from Atsushis room.
He runs in and Atsushi is crying in his sleep.
Dazai feels bad so he climes in and snuggles Atsushi calming him down.
That's all he could do at this very moment.
Chuuya and Aktugawa came over but Atsushi was still sleeping .
They left soon after.
It was just Dazai and Atsushi.
2 hours later
Atsushis pov :
His head hurts .
He slowly opened his eyes .
Trying to recall what had happened in his head.
At the moment everything was a blur.
He gets up swaying a little.
He was so hungry but wasn't sure if he wanted to take the risk.
He walks out his room seeing Dazai on the couch in the living room.
"How you feeling Atsushi?"
He didn't respond all he did was stare .
"Was that real ?"
Dazai nodded.
Atsushi joined him on the couch.
"Are you hungry Atsushi you've been asleep for some time ?"
"No I'm ok but thanks "
Dazai let it go knowing it would just make this worse to push it.
They sat there the entire day.
Watching TV.
By night time Atsushi was laying by dazais side sleeping.
Wishing this would just blow over.
3 weeks later :
Atsushis pov :
Things didn't blow over.
Everything got worse.
He released twise horribly because the voices wouldn't go away.
His eating habits were even worse than before.
His eyes were dead all the time with bags under then.
He was so pale you could mistake him for a ghost.
Even people from the mafia were trying to help.
But nothi g seemed to work.
All it did was make things worse.
Atsushi have had enough .
People pittying him all the time.
Getting looked down on.
He was done.
He had secretly gone to the pharmacy and brought sleeping pills.
If he was gonna go he wanted it to go peacefully.
It was the night he was gonna do it.
Said goodnight to Dazai and went to the bathroom.
Shoving a handful of pills in his mouth swallowing hard.
The container was empty.
Carelessly he left it there and went to bed.
Giving Dazai one last smile before he was dead.
It was a thrill knowing he wasn't ever going to wake up again.
He felt the pills take effect his eyes getting heavier.
He was so close to death.
Dazai comes rushing in the room with the container yelling things in his face.
But he couldn't hear what he was saying.
All he did was smile then everything faded away.
It was the end.