You All Over Me ('La Magie' Book 2)

ANIM

"Thank you for this night love.. mahal na mahal kita sobra.. I will fight for you.. bahala na"

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Ahhhh.. what a dream!

Grabe naman yun! 

I told myself as I held my head.

Ang sakit ng ulo ko. I feel so dizzy and nauseous na hindi ko agad maidilat ang mata ko.

It took me a few seconds before I could finally open my eyes.

When I did, I quickly reached for my phone beside me to check the time

"3:00 AM"

"Ahh.. alas tres pa lang pala."

Matutulog na sana ako ulit ng biglang sumama ang sikmura ko.

Shit nasusuka ako..

When I felt it in my tummy, agad akong napabalikwas ng bangon paupo sa kama.

I held my mouth and was about to get out of bed ng bigla kong naramdaman ang lamig ng aircon sa balat ko.

Sa sobrang lamig, it made me shiver.

That's when it hit me.

I quickly realized that I was naked.

Sa gulat ko, parang umurong ang suka ko.

My heart started pounding as I picked up my phone again to illuminate the room and turned on the bedside lamp.

And when I did, my eyes widened in shock.

I quickly recognized where I was and who was sleeping beside me, naked under the sheets, arms on my waist.

"Yawa! What the hell? Ano na naman tong ginawa ko?"

I told myself as I started to panic.

What I thought was a dream was real all along.

I just slept with Bong.

"No..No.. this can't be happening.. hindi pwede.."

I told myself as I slowly removed his arms around my waist.

Oo mahal ko pa din si Bong. Mahal na mahal sobra..

Pero hindi na pwede.

Hindi na dapat.

Hindi tama.

My recent trip in the US with my family made me realize that breaking up the affair was the best decision for the both of us.

Isa pa, I already made a lot of progress during the time I was away from him at ayoko ng bumalik pa.

I don't want to be miserable again.

Ayoko ng maging kabit at magkaroon ng kabit.

This illicit affair is not right and it should stop.

Mahal ako ng asawa ko and he adores me kaya hindi pwede to.

When I thought of that, I quickly gathered my clothes from the floor and wore them.

Then I started pacing back and forth at the end of the bed.

Sa sobrang kaba ko, I started to bite my nails.

Bukod pa sa nangyari sa amin ni Bong, I was thinking kung paano ako makakalabas ng palasyo na walang makakahalata.

As I was pacing, bigla akong napalingon kay Bong.

The shade of the bedside lamp was shining through his face.

Ang himbing ng tulog niya at mukhang ngayon lang siya ulit nakatulog ng ganun ka himbing.

As I looked at him, I couldn't help but tear up a little.

I clearly remembered how many times he told me that he loves me while we were making love.

Anim.

Anim na beses niyang sinabi na mahal niya ako.

Hindi lang basta mahal,

Mahal na mahal.

And I know that it's true.

I felt it in the way he touched me, the way he kissed me, and the way he made love to me.

Alam kong totoo ang lahat ng sinabi niya.

Mahal na mahal ako ni Bong and I love him too.. sobra.

Pero bakit ganun? Bakit parang ako naman ang biglang natakot? 

Why do I feel like I'm not willing to take the risk anymore?

I'm so confused and I don't want to complicate things anymore.

Especially now..

I still have a bigger challenge ahead of me and I promised myself na walang makakaalam.

Kahit si Mans.

Lalong lalo na si Bong.

At Least not now.

Not yet.

Pero mahal ko siya.. How can I stay away from him when I love him dearly?

When I thought of that, I slowly walked towards the side of the bed.

I sat on the floor beside where he was sleeping and started staring at his face and watch him breathe.

He looks so good.

Ang gwapo ng pinakamamahal ko.

I looked at him with my heart full of emotions.

Why do I love this man so much?

Then I started to caress his face gently as I softly spoke to him.

"Ikaw lang ang minahal ko ng ganito Bong.. and I know that even if I live for so many lifetimes, you will always be the one. Ikaw pa din ang hahanapin at mamahalin ko. You are my soulmate."

I told him as I kept caressing his face.

When I uttered those words, my tears fell and I became so emotional.

I watched him sleep for a few minutes before I kissed him gently on the lips.

When our lips touched, di ko maiwasang mapapikit.

Then I gave him one more glance.

One last glance before I stood up and spoke.

"I'm sorry Bong,
I love you but I can't be with you anymore.
Hindi na kita pwedeng mahalin. Please forget about me.."

Then I turned my back and slowly walked away.

God knows I wanted to stay..

But..

I simply can't..

So I chose to say Goodbye.

Deep in my heart, I knew that Bong and I are soulmates.

But soulmates don't necessarily end up together and that's the reality that we have to accept.

"I'll teach my heart how to unlove you Bong.. please do the same. Goodbye my love."

I told myself as I walked out of the room wearing my heart on my sleeve.

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Mandatory song here for a complete chapter experience.

🎶I'll say good-bye for the two of us
Tonight while you're asleep
I'll kiss you softly one last time
And say good-bye like I know we must
There's just no other way
And I couldn't bear to see your heart break
So, I'll wait 'til you're asleep to say good-bye🎶