You All Over Me ('La Magie' Book 2)

"Sampung hakbang"

Sara's POV

"Sir tara na at pakibilisan na din"

Utos ko sa driver.

Alam kong hindi tama na iwan ko si Bong ng basta nalang pero kailangan kong gawin para sa ikabubuti ng lahat.

Yes, I need him. Kailangang kailangan ko siya sa buhay ko ngayon lalo na at maselan ang pagbubuntis ko.
I needed him to be with me every step of the way during this pregnancy lalo na at balak ko na sanang magtapat kay Mans.

But she needs him more.

Mas kailangan siya ni Liza ngayon so I decided push him away.

Mahirap.

Sobrang sakit.

Pero alam kong yun ang tama at yun ang kailangan.

Bong loves me too much kaya nagbubulag bulagan siya sa katotohanang dapat niyang unahin ang asawa niya.

Mahal na mahal ako ng pinakamamahal ko but I couldn't let him abandon his wife and his children in this difficult time. Hindi kakayanin ng konsensya ko.

Kaya ako nalang ang magpapaubaya.

Ako nalang ulit.

Para kay Liza at sa safety ng magiging anak namin ni Bong, kailangan kong gawin to.

So when Bong was inside the room, I hurriedly got into the car and told my driver to leave.

Kitang kita ko ang paghabol ni Bong sa akin from the rear view mirror.

Ang sakit.

How could I leave the person I love the most just like that? Especially right after he went down on his knees and begged me not to?

My Bong..Why do we always have to make the sacrifice gayung parehas naman kaming nagmamahalan?

Why does love need to be this painful?

I kept asking myself habang papalabas na ang sasakyan ko papunta sa airport.

Pero bago paman kami tuluyang makalabas, I gave Bong another glance from the mirror and I could clearly see him standing there as he watched me leave.

Then I told myself

"Mahal, I'm sorry. Mahal na mahal kita at para sayo lahat ang ginagawa kong ito. Para sa ikatatahimik ng lahat. Please forgive me for letting you go."

When I thought of that, my tears began to flow.

Paano na ako ngayon? How can I face all the challenges and criticisms brought by this affair? How could I pretend that everything is alright when it's not?

So many questions were running through my mind as I left Manila and flew to Davao.

After 2 hours, I was finally back in my hometown.

I honestly didn't know kung paano ko haharapin si Mans at ang mga bata. I feel so guilty and disgusted with myself.

Hindi ko alam kung may mukha pa akong ihaharap sa kanila pagkatapos ng lahat ng nagawa ko.

Bong and I had been going back and forth for months now but I really never thought about this.

I guess it was because I was too happy being with him na hindi ko na naisip ang pagdating ng araw na to.

The day Bong and I feared has finally come.

It was almost 2am when I arrived at home.

Habang pababa ako sa sasakyan ay rinig na rinig ko ang tibok ng puso ko.