You All Over Me ('La Magie' Book 2)

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"Yes sir! Ok naman po.. Everything is normal. Yes, very healthy baby girl po si Diara. "

Masayang balita sa akin ng doctor ni Sara.

"Diara? Is that the name of the baby?" Mahinang tanong ko.

"Yes sir! The baby's name is Diara, such a nice name." She confirmed.

When she did, I couldn't help but think.

"Diara... Ferdinand and Sara.."

Then the doctor spoke again na parang kinikilig.

"It means gift daw"

When I heard her giggle over the phone, I couldn't help but let out a bittersweet smile.

"Gift? That's cute." Matipid na sagot ko.

Then she answered me back

"Cute talaga sir! Sabi ni VP, Diara is the precious gift given to her by the love of her life daw. " She said while giggling.

"Ah ganun ba? Good for her then. Sige thanks for the update. You know what to do okay? No one should know. " Seryosong paalala ko sa doctor.

"Yes sir! This is strictly confidential" she said before we ended the call.

Ang totoo hindi ko alam ang mararamdaman ko. I am happy that we are having a baby girl just like I always wanted.

I'm happy that she thought of me when she picked a name for our baby.

I should be happy that she referred to me as the love of her life pero bakit ganun? Ba't parang hindi ako masaya? Bakit ang sakit?

"Love of my life" How can the sweetest words turn into the most painful line?

When I thought of that, I closed my eyes and held my chest.

6 long months.. tiniis kong hindi siya makita at makausap. All because I wanted her and our baby to be safe.

"Diara. My princess Diara..
Oh love..God knows how much I miss you.. mahal na mahal pa din kita. I miss you every second, every minute of every day and every waking hour of my life namimiss kita but I hope you're happy kahit wala na ako."

I told myself while my tears fell.

Ang totoo, kahit pa ipinagtabuyan ako ni Sara, hindi parin ako tumigil sa kaka monitor sa kanya. I used my connections to get updates about her pregnancy.

7 months and 18 days that's how far along she is pero hindi ko man lang siya nasamahan.

I knew that she did what she thought was best for us that time at ngayon naiintindihan ko na yun.

If she didn't push me away, I wouldn't realize how serious Liza's situation was.

When I got here, my heart was shattered when I saw my boys crying hysterically in front of their mom's hospital bed.

Liza had another attack that was worse than the first one.

I couldn't bear to see the look on my children's faces lalong lalo na si Vinny.

Our youngest has always been very close to Liza at hindi niya matanggap ang nangyari sa mom niya.

If he only knew that I caused it, he would never forgive me and that guilt will haunt me forever.

Kaya tama si Sara.

We love each other too much that we completely disregarded the people who depended on us.

And Liza, the mother of my boys, after 6 long months is still under coma.

Because of me.

Kaya kahit gustuhin ko pang makasama ulit ang babaeng pinakamamahal ko ay hindi na pwede.

She was right. Maraming masasaktan. Maraming nakasalalay.

Our love was beautiful but sad and tragic.

I wanted to fight for her and I still do. Pero sa sitwasyon ngayon, mas mabuti na muna ang ganito.

My son Vinny has not been feeling well in the past month. He is going through depression and It scares me to death because I caught him almost hurting himself.

Mahal na mahal niya ang mommy niya and he is slowly getting sick too in every day that she's not well.

Hindi ko siya pwedeng pabayaan.

And Sara, I know she will be alright. I made sure that she will be bago ako umalis.

Kahit masakit, ginawa ko lahat para hindi siya maiwang mag isa and I just hope and pray to God that he will keep his word.

No matter how painful it is, I'm willing to take it maging masaya lang ang Sara ko.

I carry a lot of excess baggage in my life right now and my Sara, my Diara, they both deserve peace and happiness na hindi ko kayang ibigay.

Whatever happens to us, masaya na ako.

Masaya na akong minahal niya ako and I know we will forever share a special bond because of our Diara.

Whether or not we will still have our happy ending, only time will tell.

But one thing is for sure, I will not stop loving her.

I will not stop loving my Sara until my last breath.

But until the time is right for us, I will continue caring and loving her from afar.

I'll patiently wait till our paths collide again.

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🎶Can I lay by your side? Next to you, to you
And make sure you're alright
I'll take care of you🎶