Save me - an Ashley Olsen story

Anniversary

Hey guys! This is going to get sad and depressing real quick. Hang in there with me. There will be triggers for suicide and self harm. Please know you are all loved and if you need help please ask for it ❤️

"Goodnight love. I love you" I whisper and kiss her head. She turns her head and smiles, "goodnight baby. I love you too" she says and leans up to kiss me. She snuggles back down and eventually falls asleep. I hold off a little longer but eventually loose my Battle. I can't believe she loves me...

POV JJ

It's been a week and 2 days since Halloween. November 9th...God I hate this day I think as I lay on my bed. Yes I'm still in bed, I always request this day off. It's about 8am and I didn't get any sleep last night. I just laid in bed and stared at the ceiling. I glanced at my phone and saw Emily sent a text. I ignore it and roll out of bed and head to the bathroom. I get myself somewhat presentable but not enough to be uncomfortable. I grab my phone and head out to my couch. I'm not hungry and I don't want to do anything. I'm just so tired...not physically, well I am but mentally. I just don't want to do anything today, I feel numb, cold...nothing. as I was just staring off into space my phone chimes. I glance down at it and see a text from Ashley. I sigh and open it so she doesn't worry.

Ash☀️

Hey baby! Good morning!
I know your probably at work
and busy but I just wanted to
Say good morning.

What are you doing for dinner?
Do you want to come over?

Me

Morning love, I'm sorry I
can't do dinner tonight.
Raincheck?

Ash☀️

Oh ok no problem.
Friday? I have a late
day tomorrow.

Me

Ya sounds great.
I'm sorry.

Ash☀️

No don't apologize Jay.
I'll see you Friday!
Have a good day and I
miss you and love you ❤️

Me

Ok, love you too

I turn click out of her contact and sigh. I know I was a bit short and uninterested but I can't help it. I look at the text Emily sent and tears started to form in my eyes

Em🐈‍⬛

Hey JJ, I know you probably
Won't respond, but I just
wanted to let you know that
it'll be ok. If you need anything
just call me ok? I'll be there.

I set my phone down and close my eyes to stop the tears from escaping. I don't know why I'm crying, it's been 17 years...why does it still hurt so much? I shove all my feelings down and stand up and put some shoes. I grab my keys and a light jacket by the door then head out shutting the door behind me. I get to my car and hop in. It starts to rain and I chuckle bitterly at the irony. I turn the engine on and pull out starting my 3 hour car ride to where I dread the most...home

POV Ashley

I just got done texting JJ and she seemed a bit off, but I shove it aside to her being busy and focus on work. I only had a half day today and I was hoping on spending it with Jay but that seems to be a bust. I know MK is busy with her family tonight and I don't want to intrude...Lizzie! I grab my phone and send her a text.