Save me - an Ashley Olsen story

First Case and Talks

Hey! First Case let's see what happens here.

"How about we see where we are at 6 months? That's in a few weeks. We can even do a trial run... When I'm not insured" I say with a laugh and she nods. "I like that, I think that sounds good." She agrees and I lean down to kiss her. We both lay together just snuggling as we slowly fall asleep all it can think is how I can't wait to take this next step. I'm ready to do anything with her.

POV JJ

It's been a few days since our week together and I'm incredibly happy. I think back to when we talked about moving in together. I want nothing more but I need to get myself together before then. I want to be better, or at least more sane then I am now. I'm at work now and I'm lost in my emails not really paying attention. I didn't even see Emily come up and sit on my desk until she waved her hand in front of me making me jump a bit. "You ok JJ?" She asks worriedly and I nod but she gives me a pointed look. "Ashley and I talked about moving in together" I say and she smiles at me. "That's great! ...that's great right?" She asks after a beat making me laugh. "Ya, ya it is. But we're going to wait till our 6 month maybe and talk about it again, and then maybe to a test run" I share and she nods her head. "Very mature for lesbians" she jokes making me snort. "so... Why are you post in thought then?" She asks and I glance around then stand up dragging her with me. I find a vacant room and close the door. "what's wrong? I don't need to beat a bitch do I?" She asks seriously making me roll my eyes but smile at her. "no, you don't need to 'beat a bitch'... Um I don't know how to say this" I mumble the last part running a hand through my hair. "Hey, take your time. You don't have to tell me everything either. Just what you want. You can tell me anything Jen" she says grabbing my hand gently. "ya, ya I know. Um... I've been having." I stop to find the words to make me seem less crazy but sigh when I find none. "I think I'm going crazy, well no I know what's happening... Well I hope I do. It's some twisted way I'm coping with all my trauma in a short amount of time. That or I'm having a break down" I ramble and start to pace. She puts her hand out in front of me grabbing my arms to stop me from pacing. "Hey Jennifer calm down ok, I have no idea what you're on about" she says worriedly making me take a deep breath. "I'm seeing my sister. My very dead sister, she just showed around Christmas, but I thought it was a dream. A very real one but a few weeks later at the graveyard and a course more times. I'm going crazy Em, I'm having full ass conversations with her. She touches me, I can feel it. I..." I begin to break down causing me to take a breath not wanting to fall apart. I look at Emily and I can't read her face. Great she thinks I'm fucking crazy. I think to myself, but before I can backtrack she speaks up. "Your not crazy Jennifer. You've been through a lot. More trauma in a short amount of time that is recommended. You haven't felt with any of it. It's natural and you know it, your not going crazy it's your brains way to cope with all your emotions." She explains what I already knew but I felt nice hearing someone else say it. "You don't think it's unhealthy or crazy?" I ask tentatively. She shakes her head and walks up hugging me. "No JJ, I think it's actually pretty healthy. For you at least" she jokes making me chuckle. "If it's helping you process then let it help. I know you have unresolved feeling about your sister and family, maybe it's her way to help you through everything. Just please let me know if it gets to the point your seeing her everywhere or having conversations all the time. That would be cause for alarm" she says and I nod. "I will don't worry, thank you." I say hugging her again. "Thank you for telling me. You can always talk to me ok" she says and I nod. "I know" I say and after composing ourselves we head out and get back to work. Not 20 minutes later Hotch calls us into the meeting room. Great a case... This will be my first back.

After going over the case we get ready to head out. We are heading to Chicago for a serial murderer who is a little late to the Valentine's Day party. He's been killing couples with a machine gun, totally obliterating them. The pictures were not pretty. I had a few minutes to call Ash to let her know. "Hey Jay! What's up?" Ash answers in the second ring in a happy tone. I glanced at the clock seeing it was about her lunch time so she was probably with MK eating. "Oh put it on speaker!" I hear MK shout making me laugh. "Hey JJ! What's up?" MK asks. "We have a case. We're leaving in 10 to Chicago." I say not wanting to be at around the bush. There's a bit of silence making me think I lost connection or something until ash speaks up. "Be careful please." She whispers making my heart ache a bit. "I promise I'll be careful. We'll try to wrap this up in the next couple of days ok. I'll call you or text when I can. Could you let Liz know? I have to go." I ask her and she hums saying ok. "Ok, I love you I'll talk to you soon. MK take car of her and I'll see you later. I be safe promise I'm pushing Emily out first" I joke making them laugh a bit. "Ok, love you. You better get home in one piece understood?" Ash tells her sternly. "Yes ma'am. Ok I have to go love you by Kate!" I say and they both say goodbye and I hang up grabbing my go bag and getting in the jet.