(Book 2) The Dark Side of Fame - Scarlett Johansson x Female Reader

No Running Away

I stare out at the Malibu sunset from the pool processing everything. Scarlett comes down after an hour or so and sits beside me.

Scarlett: I understand.
Me: Understand what?
Scarlett: I'm saying I understand, if you don't want this. I can get rid of it.
Me: What're you talking about? Baby, adding to the family is fine, it's amazing actually. But I kind of just wished you'd have told me first. Big life changes aren't exactly my forte, we've seen that. I'm a drug addict, an alcoholic, I don't know if I'll be able to give myself to another child the way I have done with the other two.
Scarlett: Former.
Me: What?
Scarlett: Former addict, you aren't any of those things now.
Me: You know what I'm getting at.
Scarlett: I just wanted it to be like when you found out about Cosmo. I'm sorry, I should've asked. I just thought you're in such a good place and you've really worked hard to figure everything out, that we'd be ready for that now.
Me: I know babe, I'm not unhappy about you being pregnant again, it's amazing, I can't wait. We can do this. But you asking earlier if I relapsed, was that because of this?

She nods.

Scarlett: I just wanted to be sure that you're good.
Me: I'm still learning, but I'm good. Who else knows?
Scarlett: Rose figured it out, morning sickness. Your Mom knows and so does mine.
Me: Nothing's ever just boring with us, is it? Nothing vanilla to see here, just life event after life event.
Scarlett: I don't think you knew what normal was even before we met, Y/N.

I wrap my arm around her shoulders and pull her in, Scarlett resting her head on my shoulder.

Me: So we're really doing this again, huh?
Scarlett: I guess so, that's okay, right?
Me: I'm fucking terrified, but yeah, it's okay.
Scarlett: Why? You've done this before, you've got this.
Me: I know, but this just feels different to me. I'm a totally different person than I was when Cosmo was born, I've been through more than anyone could ever go through. I'm not the bright eyed, bushy tailed 20 year old I was when I first met Rose. She's 12 this year, Cos is 4. We're going to have another baby, it's insane.

She can sense the anxiety in my voice.

Scarlett: You're going to be fine, we're going to be fine. You've done nothing but give the kids the best upbringing. And you've come out of the other side probably better than most would.
Me: I just don't wanna mess it up again.
Scarlett: You didn't mess anything up in the first place. Look at me.

She places her forehead on mine and plants her hand on my cheek.

Scarlett: You have been the most perfect Mom to our children, everything that's happened, you've fixed yourself. You're strong, you're healthy, you're amazing, selfless, so fucking hot, and although you're imperfect, you're perfect for us. And I love you for everything, you're gonna be awesome.
Me: We're having another baby.
Scarlett: We're having another baby.
Me: Wait, is everything safe? Like is everything okay with it? Are you gonna be okay, it's not risky right?
Scarlett: Y/N, I found out last week. I don't even know myself yet.
Me: Do you have a checkup anytime soon? I need to change my schedule.
Scarlett: Not sure, I'll check tomorrow.

All of a sudden I get a shooting pain in my head, I wince.

Scarlett: Are you okay? Y/N...Y/N!

I start to feel dizzy, and feel like I'm going in and out of consciousness. Scarlett's voice starts to become muffled, then everything goes dark.

Scarlett: Babe, hey, come on, you're okay.
Jack: Y/N, open those eyes for me, come on.

Their voices start coming back to me slowly, the light so bright I can barely see.