(Book 2) The Dark Side of Fame - Scarlett Johansson x Female Reader

Closure

(Demi Lovato - Sober)
Me: "I got no excuses for all these goodbyes
Call me when it's over, cause I'm dying inside
Wake me when the shakes are gone
And the cold sweats disappear
Call me when it's over and myself has reappeared

I don't know, I don't know, I don't know why
I do it every, every, every time
It's only when I'm lonely

Sometimes I just wanna cave and I don't wanna fight
I try and I try and I try and I try and I try
Just hold me, I'm lonely

Momma I'm so sorry, I'm not sober anymore
And daddy please forgive me for the drinks spilled on the floor
To the ones who never left me, we've been down this road before
I'm so sorry, I'm not sober anymore."

I play my piano, not noticing that Hailee has come into the studio in the outhouse, whilst Scarlett, Florence and the kids sit around the fire pit. She sits beside me at the piano. I keep playing.

Hailee: You got anymore words?
Me: Negative on that one.
Hailee: Lemme improv.

I nod and go back to the verse.

Hailee: "I'm sorry to my future love for the girl that left my bed
For making love the way I saved for you inside my head
And I'm sorry for the fans I lost who watched me fall again
I wanna be a role model, but I'm only human

I don't know, I don't know, I don't know why
I do it every, every, every time
It's only when I'm lonely

Sometimes I just wanna cave and I don't wanna fight
I try and I try and I try and I try and I try
Just hold me, I'm lonely

Mamma I'm so sorry I'm not sober anymore
And daddy please forgive me for the drinks spilled on the floor
To the ones who never left me, we've been down this road before
I'm so sorry, I'm not sober anymore

I'm not sober anymore

I'm sorry that I'm here again, I promise I'll get help
It wasn't my intention, I'm sorry to myself."

I stop playing on the last two lines, Hailee at this point crying.

Me: We have been down this road before, you're right.
Hailee: Does she know, about when you were 16?
Me: Nah, it's not relevant.
Hailee: You haven't told your wife that you were an alcoholic long before now?! What, and she thought you cruised rehab because you were strong?! Not because you knew what to expect?!

I throw my hand over her mouth.

Me: You wanna keep it down? And I wasn't an alcoholic, I just had a few rough nights when I was a kid.
Hailee: You mean 6 months of rough nights when you were 16? When you sniffed cocaine and took molly for fun? How does she think you got back into it so quickly?
Me: Yes, and it was fine. I didn't have an addiction to booze, we're all fine. She doesn't want to know any of it, she saw it when it was bad, and she said she can't see that again.
Hailee: When she listens to this song she's going to think you did something to make you not sober anymore.

I close the piano top.

Me: And that is why, little Steinfeld, it stays in this room, and doesn't leave. Anyway, how are you and Flo?
Hailee: She's in shock I think, she just keeps giving me this look...
Me: Oh, this one?

I show her the same stupid, sympathetic, puppy eyed look I'd always get.

Hailee: How many times does someone have to keep giving you that look before you snap?
Me: Depends, how many traumatic events do you want to go through in the next 5 years?
Hailee: No more than this one, thanks.
Me: Ah, you'll be absolutely fine then. You know she loves you.
Hailee: I know.
Me: Do you?
Hailee: Of course I do, Y/N. Why do you think I'm with her?
Me: You've been together for over 3 years now. You still haven't said yes to her asking to move in with you. Yes, I hear everything before you ask how I found out.