You and Me

Chapter 72

I finished showering and put on a flowy dress that reached my mid thighs. We didn't have plans besides brunch but I still wanted to feel pretty. I left my hair down and put on some slides and walked downstairs. Ivan was in the kitchen making a coffee and I went and hugged him from behind. He chuckled and turned around. He picked me up and sat me on the counter.

"Talk to me" he said and I sighed. I know what he's asking and I want to tell him but it's frustrating because I had finally moved on from my fear and now it's back.

"I had a nightmare, a memory of... yesterday" I said, hiding my face on the crook of his neck. "Was it bad?" Ivan asked and I shook my head. "Yes it was but I wasn't like... scared for myself but for..." I started off and he placed his hand on my back and started to rub it the way he normally does when he starts to notice I'm getting anxious.

"The baby, you were scared for the baby" he finished my sentence and I picked up my head and looked at his beautiful ocean eyes and nodded. "I would never be able to forgive myself if something happened to her" I said and Ivan smiled and arched an eyebrow. "Her?" he asked, causing me to smile. "It's just a feeling" I said and he kissed me. He pulled away but left our foreheads touching. "You know it wasn't your fault right?" he asked worriedly, pulling away.

"I know but I can't help but think it is" I said and he shook his head. "Jackson would've waited for a good time to try something and he found one. But he won't be able to hurt you ever again now that he's in jail" he said. Ivan is throwing a whole lawsuit against him which we can win because of all the past medical records from the time he left me for dead and the footage from yesterday. "I love you, and I promise you on everything that I love that I didn't give him any reason to think he could-" I started to ramble and Ivan just smashed his lips on mine to shut me up.

"I know love, I know" he said and I nodded. A tear fell from my eyes and I explained to him. "Yesterday he... he started to try to touch me and I fought him for it and then he hit me...I-I tried fighting him off again but I was in and out half of the time so he... h-he" I explained starting to break down and sobbed. Ivan pulled me in and hugged me. "I know, baby," he said.

"He t-touched me on my-breast right when you e-entered" I sobbed out, hugging him. "I don't want you to see me differently, please" I cried on his shoulders and he pulled me away, with his hand wiping all the tears away.

"Baby! Of course not, you did everything you could... plus I know these are mine" he said smirking, pointing at my boobs causing me to start laughing. He smiled and kissed me. "That's what I want to see, you smiling and laughing not crying... I love you" he said and I kissed him. "I love you, more than you know" I said to him. He smiled and leaned in to kiss me. The kiss was gentle at first but I needed more so I licked his lip. He opened his mouth and our tongues danced with each other.

"We s-shouldn't" Ivan said against my mouth and I continued to kiss him. "Mmm we should" I said rubbing his cock through his pants with my hand causing him to groan against my mouth. "Baby you were just... upset about yesterday I don't think... it's a good idea" he said, pulling away. I looked at him confused and hurt. "You don't want to" I softly said, "I was right... you do see me different" I started saying getting off of the counter. "No Charlotte, baby that's-" he started, but I cut him off.

"It's okay," I said, tears brimming my eyes. "If I was in your position I would be disgusted of me too" I said the tears finally flowing down my cheeks while I ran upstairs. I went into the guest bedroom that has our old bed and locked it. I went into the closet and pulled out a blanket. I layed in the bed with the blanket, crying my heart out.

I knew that he sees me differently. I mean why wouldn't he. His wife was being touched by another man. I know I did everything in my power to not let it happen but it still did. And the truth is... I won't blame him if he feels disgusted because... I do. I look at myself in the mirror and remember every small inch of my body that he touched. A knock on the door brought me back from my thoughts and I looked at it.

Published 08/17/2022