A Fatal Desire [Completed]

05

Chapter Five

VIGÉNERE

Did I hurt him? Sure I did.

Tss.

Sinabi ko talaga iyon para tigilan na niya ako sa kakakulit at para tigilan na rin niya ang kahibangan niya. He's courting the wrong person. Wala siyang aasahan sa akin dahil paniguradong masasaktan lang siya kapag ipinagpatuloy niya iyon.

Hindi na niya ako kinulit pa. Mabuti nga iyon para matahimik na ang buhay ko. I close my eyes tightly. Hindi pa rin ako natutulog hanggang ngayon at nakatalukbong lang ng kumot. Iniisip ko ang sinabi sa akin kanina ni Morphius.

Pinapunta ko siya kaagad dito bago pa man bumalik si Ephraim dahil hindi ako mapakali sa mga tanong sa isipan ko.

CORTEZ organization is connected with Vidanez. Napatunayan ko na konektado nga sila. Hindi ko iyon kaagad inaasahan. Before my dad died, Cortez and Blaine are not in good terms. Eliza which is my foster mother is a Cortez but my dad and her still end up together and I don't know how it happened. Iyan ang matagal ko ng inaalam hanggang ngayon pero hindi ko pa rin mahanap ang kasagutan.

Maybe I will know more about it if I dig deep into their world. May gusto pa akong malaman tungkol kay Eliza at alam ko na ang organisasyon lang ang kasagutan.

Eliza was the first one who died. It happened in our house 14 years ago after she tortured me. Hindi ko alam kung anong nangyari ng time na 'yon kasi nawalan ako ng malay.

I just woke up that day covered with blood and I saw her lying on the floor unconsciously bathing with her own blood while holding a knife. I saw my dad holding a gun thay time. I thought my dad killed her but he didn't.

Ang sabi niya lang sa akin ay kakauwi niya lang galing sa trabaho and he was holding his gun to put it inside the drawer when he saw us. Somehow I believe him but I still had doubts.

Pilit kong inaalala lahat ng nangyari pero wala akong maalala. Kapag inaalala ko ang mga araw na iyon ay sumasakit ang ulo ko.

Then, after that day, my dad died. They told me that my dad died because of a heart attack but someone told me that he didn't die because of that. Someone killed him. I'm still finding the truth behind it. My first suspect about his death is the Cortez.

Sila lang naman ang gagawa ng bagay na iyon dahil dati pa man ay ayaw nila kay papa but I have someone in my mind right now who have the guts to kill my father. I'm still confirming it.

After they died, they left unanswered questions. I heave a deep sigh and decided to uncover myself. I roam my eyes around the whole place. My eyes diverted to my left when I heard a little snore. I roll my eyes when I saw him sitting on the chair and use his arm as pillow. Nakadukmo ito sa hospital bed na hinihigaan ko.

I know I've been too hard to him since then up until now but that is the only way that I could get rid of him. Gusto kong ngayon pa lang layuan na niya ako dahil hindi niya ako kilala. Hindi niya alam kung ano ang totoong hangarin ko sa pamilya nila.

Before, I thought he'll stop bugging me but I was wrong. Ang kunat ng kumag na 'to. Hindi manlang napapagod pero siguro ngayon ay titigilan na niya ako dahil sa sinabi ko.

I stared at his face for awhile while he's still asleep. I remember what is my first impression about him before. He's weak, coward, stupid and dumb. Hindi ko gusto ang ugali nito, napaka-sensitive at napaka-arte. Parang babae kung kumilos.

Pero hindi siya mahirap mahalin. Kaya lang hindi ko siya kayang gustuhin o mahalin. I don't feel anything towards him.