What I think about life.

Walk, don't run

She constantly telling herself to relax and don't make any rash decision. This is obviously an important decision she has to make in her life. She switch on her phone to check if there are any important messages. She received a lot of congratulatory messages from her colleagues which she choose to ignore because she is too anxious to reply any of them.

She can't help but smile. A promotion, well, at least she's done something right in her life. If she say yes, she cannot wait to sit in her own office and calling her assistant on the intercom. She smile again. What outfit should she wear on her first day?

She try to remember her most sophisticated outfit that she owns. The black Prada suit that she purchase on holiday sale is one of her favorite. Should she just go traditional and wear a nice 'Baju kurung'? Or maybe make a new one with elaborate 'katok' style? She is itching to buy another pair of designer suit though. She immediately switch on her laptop and check on her favorite designer online store. She made a mental note on which outfit she might buy if she is to say yes. The thought of it make her giddy.

She wonder how much exactly the job pays. She know the rough estimates and honestly it's not bad. The job is lucrative but she doubt that she can handle it. If her previous job made her insane in front of everybody, she doesn't want to know how this one will affect her.

She doesn't want to endure another mental breakdown again nor does she want to taint her good name in the company - or any company for that matter. She just want to make a wise decision right now. One that she will not regret in the future.