What I think about life.

The cold weather is your friend.

The winter days heals her soul. She finally quit her job. She could not take the pressure anymore. Her soul feel weak and broken. It felt like no amount of happiness could heal her. She felt like she is stuck in an infinite abyss. She felt numb and she couldn't feel the sweetness of life anymore. Her only option to escape is not an option at all.

She chose a safer alternative - she chose to go to somewhere new where no one knows her, away from the familiar surrounding.
She chose to see a therapist online because her mother begged her to see one. The dreaded therapy session with her therapist turn to a blossoming friendship. Laila is not sure whether her therapist see it that way but she sure does.

She rent a house for six months because that is how long she plan to be away from home. She might extend her stay at the same place or somewhere new because she can feel her soul starts to heal. Maybe it's the therapist or maybe it's living in a different setting but she can feel the numbness starts to dissipate. She feels like a person again.

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Laila can feel the rush of the winter wind on her face. The cold wind makes it hard for her to breath and her exposed face freezes as she speedily move down the slope. She avoided the trees skillfully. She breathe in the gush of cold wind and feel it pierce through her lungs.

When it seems that she is at the end of the slope, she flip her snowboard and land on the snowy ground skillfully. She sit on the flat surface and lay her back on the cold snow. She can feel the cold from the snow move throughout her back. She stare at the blank space lie ahead. The sky is particularly gray today. She just look at the nothingness without thinking about anything. That moment is priceless.

A bliss that she won't trade for anything else.