What I think about life.

Hope

Cat struggles with the shopping bags and go to her room. She put the bags on the floor and lay on her bed. She can feel her tense muscle relaxing. Who knew shopping for a cat can be exhausting? She may be overexcited with her shopping spree. She closes her eyes and suddenly fell asleep.

The kitten's cry wake her up from her slumber. It was a nice short nap. She forgot to check on the kitten when she got home. She was too tired. She immediately go to the kitten and held her up. She try to calm it down. Cat rummage through the shopping bags with one hand while the other is still holding the kitten. She grab a pouch of kitten milk and a milk bottle from one of the bags. She quickly add the milk to the bottle and feed the kitten. The kitten must be really hungry.

After making sure the kitten is fed and comfortable, she check on her shopping haul. She bought a lot of stuff - a couple of litter boxes, a pair of pink cat bowls, cat toys, a white cat bed, a big bag of dry food, 2 dozen of wet food, medicines, cleaning supplies and a few bags of high grade cat litter. She wanted to buy a lot more stuff but her conscience told her not to.

She hasn't taken care of cats since she was in high school. Her love for cats has rekindled ever since she found the kitten in the bushes. The kitten give her newfound hope and a sense of joy. A feeling she haven't felt in a long time. Funny how a tiny being can affect someone that much. Hope is the perfect name for her new baby.

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While playing with Hope, Cat's mind start to wander off. She has to go to her office in a couple of days - a thing that she dread the most. She hasn't make up her mind yet. She has been busy spending time with her new kitten. Not having to go to the office is nice. She doesn't need to worry about deadlines and she feels more relax. The slow pace of her holiday make her contemplate about life and its meaning. She is much more happier and life somehow feels lighter.

Cat point the cat toy back and forth. Hope is a feisty little kitten - her little legs run back and forth following wherever the toy go. She laugh at the sight of this. Hope is a female calico cat. This is the first time she ever take care of a calico cat. Her black, white and orange fur looks gorgeous with her long pointy tail. Just like the cat toy, her mind also moving back and forth.

She bit her lips as an indication of stress. A part of her thinks that turning down the job is an idiotic move but another part of her, the new her, want to risk it and quit like she initially intended to. She feels healthier and happier. She realize how miserable she feels when she work her 9-to-5. Even if she is to quit her current job, where would she gets her monthly income? She thought about this before but this time it's different. This time she has to weigh in the great opportunity that is given to her - something she always dreamed of since she starts working there.

Her mind move back and forth just like the cat toy.

***

Cat stand in front of her vanity. She looks very elegant and sophisticated in her simple blue 'baju kurung'. She wear a printed pastel color hijab and a light makeup. She is really nervous about the meeting with her boss that she keeps fixing her perfectly placed hijab. She checks her makeup on the mirror - should she add more color? A brighter lipstick, perhaps?

Her anxiety level is through the roof - she feels nauseous and jittery. She look at her brown leather watch - it's 7 AM. She has to go downstairs soon to grab a quick breakfast, although, her queasy stomach says the opposite. She hasn't eaten that much since yesterday. Cat hug Hope for a few minutes and talk to her. Hope meow as if she understands what Cat is saying. She has been a perfect little counselor. Who needs a relaxant when you have a cat?

She say goodbye to Hope and close the door to her bedroom. She can smell the fried rice seeping through the hallway as she rush downstairs. Suddenly, she feels hungry.