Elevator love merder

Am i marrying Burke?

We were sitting at Joe's on Sunday night. There was a shot of tequila in front of me, and i had Christina on my right, and Alex on my left.
-Ava is dead. - Alex stated, grieving his ex-girlfriend.
-I feel like i am drunk. - i continued.
-Burke proposed to me. - Christina finished.
-What? - we turned towards her in sync with Alex.
-Burke proposed to me, and said that he wanted to spend the rest of his life with me.
-And you said yes?
-I said i needed time to think. - she pulled out a ring from her pocket, looking at the diamond closely.
-I mean he is asking me to choose between surgery and him.
-You love surgery..- I started.
-Do you love him? - Alex asked.
-Yes..It's just...This is a big decision. He will want kids. I don't want kids. He will want to make me a mommy, but i don't want to be one.
-I say marry him until he is not dead. - Alex sighed.
-So...what are you going to do? - i was confused.
-I...I don't know. Do you want to get married?
-Sure. Not now. But yes. - Alex answered.
-Mer?
-I mean...yeah...once.
-To Shepherd? - Alex raised his eyebrow. I blushed and turned my attention to the now empty glass.
-What about kids? - Christina turned to us.
-I don't know...That's so...grown-up. - he finished.
-Mer? - she asked me again.
-Once, probably. But i don't want to be like my mother. If i have kids I won't chose between my career and my children. I will do both.
-Children? As in plural? - she asked me teasing.
-Child. Whatever.
-With Shepherd? - Alex asked again.
-I...I don't know. - i blushed again.
-You are such a loser! - Alex downed his beer.
-Hey!
-What?! - he defended himself.
-You and Shepherd with a baby...
-Okay, let's get back to Christina! You went way into the future.- i tried to avoid the subject.
-Oh, so it's in the future? - my best friend asked me.
-Are you saying yes to Burke? - i asked her sarcastically.
-I just...I don't know. I need some time. We have the most important exam of our careers in a week..I need to study. I'm out of here. - she sighed getting up, scooping me with her.
-Mer, you are coming with me, i need to talk to you before you get drunk.
We called a cab to take us back to my house, and i opened the door, fidgeting with the key.
-Had fun? - Derek asked us, as we stepped in watching TV.
-Burke proposed to Christina. - i spilled the guts.
-Hey! You are not supposed to tell him that!
-Why?
-You keep his secrets, you keep mine! - she answered hanging her coat.
-Sorry! - apologized hanging mine.
-Now it would be only fair if i told him one of your secrets...From tonight.
-Christina! - i warned her in a scary voice, knowing she could spill about me blushing at Joes any second.
-Mer, what are you not telling me? - Derek asked getting up.
-It's embarrassing...And it's not like that..It's a girl kind of thing. - i rambled.
-Fine...You don't have to tell me. - he sat down with a faked offense.
I followed him, letting Christina wash her hands, and while she was out of the room, i hopped into his torso, and plunged my tongue into his mouth, kissing him passionately. I grinned against him, and made him moan by kissing his neck. I heard the toilet flush and the tap open, and i wanted to stand up, but he pulled me back.
-She can handle seeing us...-he mumbled kissing me back blindly, now he grinning against me. The felt the heat rise inside of me, filling me with desire,now wanting Derek at one specific point. I moaned as he made me fall over on the couch, hovering over me, still not letting go of my lips. He grabbed my ass, and i pulled him closer. I was out of breath from the passionate kiss, but fought his tongue once more, as i pulled on his slightly curly hair, licking his lips. The bathroom door opened, and i pulled away at the last second, hopping up, and pulling my accidentally worked up shirt.
-Ready? - i asked her still panting slightly, but trying to make myself sound normal.
-You...and...you. - she pointed to us.
-Hm? - i asked back still feeling like Derek's hands were roaming on me.
-You made out with her! While i was in the bathroom! - she pointed to Derek.
-No. - he said, but his voice came out groggily, revealing our secret.
-Oh, you so did!
-You should say yes to Burke. - Derek shot him a smile, but still didn't move the pillow from his torso. Luckily, i think Chris didn't notice it, but i did.
-Let's go now..- i pulled her out, and i shew Derek a look. A kind of Meredith look. I didn't have a Mcdreamy smile, but i still had a horny look. And Derek knew it well. So i shew it to him, wanting to tease him.
-I am sleeping over today. Shepherd keep it in your pants! - Christina shouted back from the stairs, and i laughed out at her comment.
-So..Are you marrying Burke? - i tossed some popcorn in her hands, as we snuggled into bed.
I put out my hand, and she dropped the ring in it. It was beautiful.
-It fits you. You should accept it. Just if you want to. And you know...- i took out some popcorn.
-You don't have to give him kids. If you don't want to. But...Tell him. Tell him, that you don't want kids. And you probably won't change your mind, will you?
-No.
-Then tell him that. If she still wants to marry you, he loves you. Just don't let him change you. Keep your priorities, it's your life. - i handed back the ring.
-Mer..
-Hm?
-Derek will want to marry you too. And he will want a bunch of your crappy genes.
-Thanks! -i smiled at her, thinking of Derek and our little adventure before.
-But Mer..
-Hm?
-Don't have sex with him with me in the bed! - i giggled at her comment.
-If you say yes...Don you want a wedding? A real wedding, i mean. White dress, fancy champagne, expensive Bahamas.
-I...i don't know.
-Christina
-Yeah?
-Remember that this is your life. Don't make me have a word with him. - i joked, but she felt the serious message too.
-Like you could take him...
-I did take Alex...
We laughed at the memory, and she turned back to me.
-Now...Important business.
-Fine...- i sighed.
-I'll quiz you. But then you quiz me. Choose a category.
-Neurosurgery. That's what is my least favorite.
-Fine...Tell me everything you know about Posterior fossa decompression! And an example too!
-This treatment involves parts of the brain called the cerebellum and brainstem. For example, to treat a Chiari malformation, the surgeon makes an incision at the back of the patient's head to remove a small portion of the bone at the bottom of the skull. This removal creates more space for the cerebellum and relieves pressure on the spinal cord.
-Perfect.
-Thank you. - she answered, grabbing a handful of popcorn.
-My turn.