-So, you are really doing this? Adopting a baby? - Christina asked me, as we were on the way to Zola's room.
-Yeah. We've wanted a baby..since the wedding...but i couldn't...and now she is here. Chris, she is so beautiful. Her little curls remind me of Derek. And her smile...it's adorable..and she's so tiny, and just...
-Okay, i get it. You love her.
-I'm nervous about this meeting. - i told her as we joined Derek in the room.
-Nothing in my life has prepared me for something like this. I don't know anything about being a good mother. - i sighed as he handed me the baby.
-You are a good one. Already better than most. - he assured me.
-Hey! - Arizona entered.
-Zola is doing great. I'm operating on the uncomplicated hernia today. Hopefully the last surgery she has to go through. But she seems fussy. - she opened the chart.
-Try the pacifier. - she handed me it, and i carefully put it in her mouth, watching as she relaxed in my arms, putting her little curls in the crook of my arm.
-Arizona. - i called her name.
-Yeah?
-Please. Just be careful. - i asked her keeping eye contact.
-I'll try to be. I'll page you guys when i need to take her. - she left.
-I have a surgery too. - Derek came close, and kissed me on the lips briefly.
-I'll be back. - he stroked my head, and i watched him leave too.
-Could you hand me my bag? - i requested Christina.
-Sure.
-And take the book out? - as she did so, she looked at me with a really confused face.
-What? I need to be prepared. - i protected myself as she read the title. 'Your babies first years.'.
-They are not gonna test you.
-I know. I just want to know what exactly she's going through. And maybe i'll need it once.
-What do i do if she asks something about my life?
-Well, try to change the subject. Your life was crappy. If she asks about your father leaving you, change the subject. Or about your mother always working, change the subject.
-You give good advice! - i giggled at her.
-Do you think i can take her for a walk around the hospital? - i asked her.
-Why not? You're a doctor here. Let's go. - she picked up my bag, taking it with herself.
As we entered the hallways, the quieter ones, not the noisy and bloody, we ran into Lexie.
-Hey Mer! Zola! Hi! - she stroked her stomach.
-Is her surgery today?
-Yeah. Soon.
-What is it with woman falling for men who love babies? - she asked.
-Where did this come from?
-Mark had a baby at the nurse's station. And they surrounded him. Jumped on him.
-Oh jealous? - Christina teased her.
-No..-she sighed.
-You're the only one who looks at Mark, when he's with a baby..- i assured her.
-Cruel..- she waved bye to Zola.-Derek, she's operation on her now! I need to know what's happening..- i told him.
-Gallery?
-Gallery.
-You know, she's so little. - i told him, while holding his hand from the gallery.
-Yeah..she's a baby.
-A lot of things could go wrong.
-Everything is gonna be fine.
-They're gonna choose another couple. - i whispered to him.
-Why would they?
-Residents are not ideal mothers. So, i need you to stop saying everything is gonna be fine. Because if we don't get her...then...
-Things will go the way we want them to. - he squeezed my hand.
-Hey! - Mark entered the gallery.
-Hi. - i told him.
-Derek, i'm gonna need a consult.
-I'm there in a second. - he answered, but didn't look away from the screen which was showing Zola's surgery.
-I'm sure you wanted to get this baby, because you know how good i looked with one. - he joked, and Derek laughed out.
-How is she?
-Hopefully, good.
-International agencies are ... cruel. They don't just give out weavers Mer and I need...- Derek sighed.
-You'll make good parents. And the agencies will see that. You'll be okay. - he turned to both of us, and the left with Derek for the consult.-Okay...- I sighed.
-Are you ready? - Derek asked me.
-No..But let's do it anyways.
-Nice to meet you. I'm Janet, from the agency.
-Meredith Grey-Shepherd. - i introduced myself while shaking her hand, and then listened to Derek, who complemented her friendly.
-So..Meredith. Your file said you had a surgeon as a mother. What was it like? - she asked me as we sat down.
-You sure get to be independent. But i wouldn't raise Zola like my mother raised me. - i answered honestly.
-Could you talk about Zola?
-Yes. - i smiled.
-She had a big surgery today. In OR 3. The smaller one. Her room was 2031 before, and now she's in recovery. She survived it. And fought like a hero. Her heart went back to sinus rhythm on it's own. I'm..fascinated by that. - i smiled to myself.
-Oh..that's not what you meant. - i stated when i looked at her.
-Zola is also very cute and sweet. But everybody knows that. And her hair is really soft.
-I'm not doing well. - i whispered to Derek, when she wrote something down to a paper.
But unfortunately Janet heard it.
-I don't have an agenda. - she assured me.
-I'm just trying to get a sense of who you are.
-I'm a good surgeon. And i'm probably not a good mother yet, but i want to be one. And i'm willing to learn anything. And i'll do whatever it takes.
-A good mother brags about her kid. And that's what you did. And you knew where Zola was every second. I appreciate it that you shared it with me.
-So, Derek. - she turned to him, while his hand was still resting on my knee.-Hey Zola...- i caressed her head as she woke up from her nap.
-How are you? - i picked her up, careful of her head.
-I'm hoping to become your mommy soon. Would you like that? - i asked her.
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Elevator love merder
FanfictionA continuation of the series from season 3. Some changes were made in the storyline, but nothing too huge, basically more focused on their private life, and less on surgery. They take steps more quickly than in the series. Also it becomes more inter...