Unkept secrets >>Wolfstar (UNFINISHED)

silly little secrets

Friday,
December 28th.

"Mary told me not to tell anyone, so you can't tell her I told you," This is how all rumors began at Hogwarts.

"I wont," Sirius returned, knowing that he would probably end up telling James, depending on the secrets severity. Marlene nodded and leaned in closer to tell him the secret; it was childish.

"Her and Lily are in a fight right now because Mary thinks that Lily likes Remus, and she's doing something to keep Remus from dating her," Marlene tried her best to keep her laughs contained but it was just too funny, "she wont accept that he just doesn't like her."

It was a known fact that Mary McDonald had an interest in Remus ever since they had gotten back from break, and during the last two days he did his best to avoid her. It was amusing to watch for everyone else, but Sirius was irritated. He had practically dated Mary before Christmas break, why does she like Remus now?

"Does Lily like Remus?" Sirius whispered, casting a sideways glance at the boy sitting on the couch, book between his hands and glasses balancing carefully on his nose. Remus' gaze drifted upward to meet eyes with Sirius', furrowing his brow and giving him an oddly endearing look.

Sirius felt a wave of anger wash over him; Mary liked him. He looked away instantly, anticipating Marlene's response. The two of them were hiding out in a corner of the common room exchanging gossip like it was valuable goods.

"Well yeah, but don't tell Mary, she would set the castle on fire," Marlene chuckled. Sirius was deciding on when he could corner James and tell him this sensitive information, but James seemed preoccupied lately by new years preparations.

Sirius was practically fuming at this point. Remus had done the bare minimum and all of the sudden he had the attention of every girl at hogwarts.

"i wont tell mary dont worry," sirius let out a lighthearted laugh. Marlene let out a sigh of relief. she had began to trust Sirius with more secrets than one, no matter how big or small they appeared.

By telling sirius, she was in turn telling James. That night after Sirius took a hot shower and assured himself that it was just him and james in the dorm room he began to spill everything.

"I guess lily and Mary fancy Remus now," he spoke. James stopped writing on his piece of parchment.

"lily likes him?"

"Yeah, I know," Sirius grunted, falling back onto his bed. James scratched the back of his neck, his mood shifting slightly.

"How do you know?" he inquired, adjusting his glasses.

"Marlene told me, but she told me not to tell anyone," Sirius sat up to face James. The two of them sat across from each other, James leaning back on the headboard of his bed as he studied for a quiz and Sirius sat on his own bed opposite to him.

"I dont blame her, Remus has changed a lot over the break," James sighed. Sirius adjusted his boxers slightly so they remained symmetrical.

"Isn't it unfair? Mary cut things off with me the day that we left for chistmas break and she already has her eye on my roommate."

"Thats out of Remus' control, dont blame him," James tutted, returning to his work, "and put some clothes on, its freezing in here."

"I like to sleep in my boxers," sirius countered, but like always, James was right. That night Sirius laid in bed shivering, but still far too comfortable to climb out of bed and slip on pyjama pants or even a tee-shirt.

Harsh breathing caught his attention that night. Everyone seemed to be asleep, but of course the commotion came straight from Remus' bed.

It sounded panicked and uneven. Sirius sat up and waited to hear another sign of life. A shaky breath broke the silence followed by another, then another, and then eventually a soft sob fell out.

Sirius decided that even though he and Remus were in the midst of an arguement, he still had to have the common decency to check up on him.

He slid out of bed and made his way across the room to Remus' bed. Sirius froze for a minute, unsure of what to do next.

"Remus? Are you awake?" he whispered. he was answered by another chilling breath. Sirius pulled back the curtains surrounding Remus' bed to see him sitting upright with his knees pulled to his chest and his head resting on them.

"Y'okay?," Sirius took a seat next to him hesitantly. He then shut the curtains behind himself to block out the harsh moonlight seeping through the windows.

Remus didint respond. Sirius reached over to grab Remus' water bottle that he kept on his nightstand but was held back by a hand harshly grabbing his forearm.

"Don't go anywhere," Remus sniffled weakly, "please."

"I'm not, I'm just grabbing your water," Sirius whispered lightly. Remus loosened his grip a little to allow him to grab the water but still wouldnt let go.

"I'm sorry," Remus let out tearily, accepting the watter bottle Sirius handed him. He took a couple sips before he set it down on the bed and slid back under his blankets.

Sirius laid down next to him awkwardly, folding his hands onto his lap. Remus took a deep breath in order to controll himself.

"What happened," Sirius muttered, avoiding Remus eyes. Remus seemed to have the same idea because he spent the conversation staring at the ceiling with bright colored cheeks.

"Nothing," he rubbed his eyes and then turned onto his side to begin to fall asleep again. Sirius didnt want to leave just yet stubborn as he was.

"What happened to you over the break," Sirius hummed, slipping his legs into the blankets and laying on his side so he and Remus could directly face eachother.

"Some girl gave me a blowjob," Remus grinned, lying straight to Sirius' face. It was only the half truth, he had recieved a blowjob but it had been from a bloke.

He had also given two, but that wasnt worth mentioning. Sirius was now deeply jelous of Remus. He himself had gotten one from Trevor, but it was sloppy and he didn't even get to finish.

"Did you like it," Sirius asked innocently. Remus shrugged, eyes still shut delicately.

"it was alright."

"did you at least come."

"pfft, weirdo," Remus chuckled, "yeah i did."

They fell silent for a moment, Sirius taking his time to imagine the situation, and then he was brought back to their kiss.

"Did our kiss really mean nothing to you?" Sirius was quickly silenced by a panicked hand hastily covering his mouth tightly.

"Shut the fuck up. why would you bring that up?" Remus looked physically pained by the reminder. He laid almost completely on top of the other boy, his eyes widened with an inexplicable fear.

Sirius tore his hand off of his mouth.

"What the fuck? Can't you just answer me for once?"

"I'm not gay sirius," Remus almost shouted. Sirius gave him a disgusted look, moving away from under him.

Remus regretted his choice of words immediately, he had thought that by saying it, he would end up believing it himself. Rather than shouting, Sirius got off of Remus' bed and headed back to his to sleep in the cold.

NEXT CHAPTER: December 24th