12. those days

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i have those days.

those days i love my body.

those days the light falls on my skin just right.

those days my clothes fit how i want them to.

 those days my eyes don't seem too far apart.

those days my hair isn't sunk in oil.

they don't happen too often anymore,

but i love it when they do.

but then i have the other days.

the days i see pretty girls at school and start doubting everything about myself.

the days i get all dressed up and still look ugly,

like i am faking it.

the days i feel peoples eyes stare me down with judgement.

but,

no one's staring.

it's all in my mind - my own worst enemy.

feeling like my outside doesn't match my insides.

this comparison is constantly eating me up,

even on those days.

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