sometimes i wish you could see yourself the way i see you -
not the wall you put up.
sometimes i wish i could take away that pain,
even if i put it on myself,
even if i was to blame.
because i love you.
but it's okay if you don't love me too,
i understand,
i don't expect much from you anyways.
but over time i grew needy,
needy for time,
needy for you,
though i'm embarrassed to say so.
because you just seem so perfect,
compared to me anyways.
and i know this perfection is just an illusion,
warped in my brain to believe it is true,
but i just want to believe it.
i don't need the truth i need you.
and maybe that isn't a choice.
i understand,
i will wait.
i will wait as long as it takes,
because you deserve it.
you deserve everything.
you mean everything,
and i wish i could tell you through your wall.
i know you can't see yourself the way i do,
but i wish you could,
and i love you.
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dispositional tendencies
Poesiaa collection of writing and poetry i wrote about things that i can't always say out loud. i hope you enjoy this and can find comfort in knowing others feel the same as you and that you are not alone :)
