70. please

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i love my insomnia.


i can work,

i can think,

i can listen to music,

i can recover from the day.


only,

it's not recovering.


it's resisting the next day

because i can't take another second of the same day repeating over and over again and again.


every day i do something different - my body is exhausted from completing a variety of activities daily,

but my mind repeats the same consistent cycle of 'mood swings'.


yeah,

it probably wouldn't go away if i had some sleep.

but man, i am so exhausted.

i want to sleep.

please let me sleep.

someone shut off my inner demons

please.

why does god keep testing me

i've had enough tests

please.


i hate my insomnia.

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