i've struggled with insomnia quite a bit in the past
but recently
it's been a lot worse
countless nights of staring at the walls
eyes wide open
i want to go to sleep
so bad
my eyes feel heavy
heavier and heavier as the clock ticks
i can feel the eye bags forming
eyes get puffy
i can't sleep
i can't fall asleep
people judge me for sleeping so late
they don't know
that the night before
i lay in my bad
staring at the ceiling
counting the holes
counting to 100 and back
many many times
they don't know the struggle
of feeling like i won't ever go to sleep
feeling like i'm in a loop
a forever loop
of sitting and staring
waiting for my eyes to fall closed
the anxiety of how bad i will feel the next day
the guilt of taking a nap
insomnia
one of the most frustrating things.
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dispositional tendencies
Poesíaa collection of writing and poetry i wrote about things that i can't always say out loud. i hope you enjoy this and can find comfort in knowing others feel the same as you and that you are not alone :)
