being suicidal feels like you're putting your life in someone else's hands,
all the time.
your mom's hands:
because how would she recover from that?
your best friend's hands:
because she doesn't deserve anything else bad happening to her.
your brother's hands:
because he looks up to you -
and what kind of example would that set?
anyone's hands but your own.
which is ironic,
because it would be your own causing the damage in the end.
you'll never be living for yourself.
and for that reason
i cannot describe
how much it angers me
that people call suicides selfish.
i think most if the time,
being selfless
putting other people first
is the only thing
keeping them here.
because your life is in their hands.
you are living for them.
you don't know how to live for yourself.
i don't know how to live for myself.
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dispositional tendencies
Poetrya collection of writing and poetry i wrote about things that i can't always say out loud. i hope you enjoy this and can find comfort in knowing others feel the same as you and that you are not alone :)
