i've been sad too much lately.
i came to that realization
when i looked in the mirror and my eyes were bloodshot,
with black bags under my eyes from week-old mascara,
and not being able to sleep for more than three hours at a time.
once i came to that realization,
when i now affect everyone in my life negatively,
just because i'm having a "bad day".
i came to the realization that it's no longer just a "bad day"
when it's every day.
i came to that realization when i saw the person i've become,
i've given up.
i cry during movies and shows that i didn't cry during before.
i scream at someone internally the second they say one off thing,
the second they do one thing i don't like.
i get yelled at because all i do is sit in bed on my phone,
day after day,
week after week,
month after month.
i've been sad too much lately.
i came to that realization once i felt nothing.
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dispositional tendencies
Poetrya collection of writing and poetry i wrote about things that i can't always say out loud. i hope you enjoy this and can find comfort in knowing others feel the same as you and that you are not alone :)
