Blue and White - Levi Fanfiction

Ch. 87 - Ill

The meeting that next day had been... rather disappointing. The international forum had opened up to the association for the Subjects of Ymir, but unfortunately for us, their representative had expressed distaste for the Devils of the Island of Paradis.

Apparently, the association didn't lump us heathens in with the poor victims that just so happened to have the same blood we did but were not considered Paradisians.

So, it was safe to say that we were not welcome, so we stayed put and stayed quiet, doing our best to hide our shock and fright. It wasn't long after the forum, the incredible failure that it was, that we hurried onto our boat and with our hearts heavy, we set out on the high seas once more - but this time, it was to head home, back to the Island of Devils.

There was just one teeny, tiny problem.

Eren was missing.

He had not boarded the ship with us. He was not on the boat ride home and we could not turn back despite how badly we wanted to.

And... I was worried sick. Actually, it went further than that.

But more on that later.

Allow me to backtrack a bit.

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We'd only returned from Marley a few hours ago, and already, I wanted nothing more than to go back. Hell, we didn't even need to go abroad, I'd give anything just to be back on a vacation from my duties, because holy shit, I forgot how boring it was to sit in and do paperwork.

And I could do without having to make food for myself every night.

Sure, my family could spend the evenings in the base, eating in the mess hall among comrades like so long ago, but we had a home for a reason and being in the hot, noisy mess hall wasn't good for any of us or our blood pressure.

After a month of getting to use, and getting used to using, new technology, it was tough having to suddenly be without it again. It was selfish, of course it was, and I knew perfectly well that our trip was a privilege to go on and I should've been happy getting any amount of time at all there.

I knew that, and yet it wasn't any easier. Gradually, advanced technology of the modern world was making its way to us. Honestly, it was a bit embarrassing having to ask for such developments, instead of coming up with them ourselves, but to be fair to us, the outside world advanced together and shared new developments with allies.  We were, obviously, kept out of the loop.

We were also held up because of that tiny problem we'd had with fighting Titans for a hundred years. That had admittedly taken up quite a large chunk of our time, to say the least.

Oh, well.

As a kid, I never would have imagined that the world was as big as it was, full of the wonders that it was, and that it was populated by the people it was. How could I, when I grew up and my sky was made of rock, punctuated by stalactites, and my only glimpses of the sun were tiny, from cracks and ventholes?

Just thinking about it made me so unbelievably angry. Down in that city we'd been trapped like rats in a tiny city that wasn't made to be livable. And then I got to go to the surface, only to realize that the walls I'd heard about were not only bigger than anything I'd ever seen but the amount of area they enclosed was bigger than I could've possibly imagined.

And then we started exploring beyond our Walls and I got to see that our world was big, very big, bigger than the Walls could ever hope to contain. And we saw the ocean. And met the Marleyans. And traveled to Marley, where the people were worried sick that those of dirty blood like us would sneak in and slit their throats while they slept.