01/05/2023
Was out of storage on my phone tonight and needed to go through and delete old photos. Upon several minutes of scrolling, I came across old text and Snapchat screenshots between us after you left. There were a few times where you fell weak and told me how much you still missed me.
I remember about a week after you left, you wished me goodnight and told me you couldn't get my smile out of your head.
I remember after you first moved into your dorm, you took a picture of your desk but behind, on your bulletin board, was our photobooth pictures all pinned up. I remember being so surprised that you still put them up even though we were no longer together. I jsut felt so happy, knowing how much I still meant to you, and how it was so hard for both of us. We looked so goddamn effortlessly happy in those photobooth pictures, the messed up blurry ones are my favourite because either I messed up your hair to tease you or we were both laughing our ass off. Do you still have those booth pictures? Do you still have those memories?
I remember in late November after you left, you got really drunk and slept with someone. After getting home, all you did was text me constantly telling me how much you'll never love anyone else like you loved me. I remember opening up those texts and just crying, knowing how much I wasn't alone. I mean, I'm definitely alone now, but it still felt so good in that moment.
I remember when you left me on open a bit before your birthday, and how it was the very last time we ever talked to each other.
Just seeing all these old pictures I haven't seen in years made me feel so fucking sad. I will never fucking get over you.
