Dark and Wild (Book 1)

Part 15

"My world, My happiness, My everything, I love you y/n"
( J.K )

I froze as i read the note, the initials indicate that it was Jungkook.
"He loves me, does he really love me?" I kept reading the note, my mind starts searching for the lost memories that i have with Jungkook.
"Come on y/n try to remember anything" I closed my eyes and force my brain to remember anything.
My head hurt, but i keep forcing, i want to remember everything about him.
"What are you doing?" His voice startled me, i opened my eyes and turned my head to facing him.

Jungkook's Pov
I came out of the bathroom, and saw her who was sitting next to the wardrobe, she looked like reading something, i smiled and walked closer to her.
When i was near her, i'm shocked to see what she was doing with the photo album. A photo album that holds all our childhood memories.
My body tremble, i was so angry and frightened, i'm scared if something bad happened to her.

Y/N Pov
"What the hell are you doing?" He shouted while he look at the photo album.
"I see everything, just tell me Jungkook, tell me the truth" i replied
He looked at me deep right into my eyes, his gaze was full of anger, he snatched the album.
"How dare you to open thiss?" He yelled.
"Why? can i not open it? there is my photo in there too, I want to know what we used to be like when we were kids, did i do something wrong?"
I shouted, my body trembled.
"Obviously, that's a big mistake, you can't open this" he raised his tone.
He stare at me, clenched his fist, he was so mad. I can feel it but i don't know why he was mad.
I don't know why he didn't let me to see the album.
"Please Jungkook, i just want to know, i just want to remember everything about you, about us, why are you hiding everything from me? I know you remember about everything, but why? why you didn't tell me? why you didn't let me to remember you?" I said with a shaky voice.
"I really hate myself, i feel like a fool, because i can't remember everything, please tell me Jungkook" i try to reach his hand with my tremble hand but he threw my hands away.
The tears dropped down my cheek.
My heart hurt to see his reaction to me.
"Forget it, there is nothing you should remember about us, about out past, got it?" He said with a cold tone, he stepped back, turned his body unfacing me.
"Please Jungkook, let me know everything, let me remember everything" i beg him once more with tears.
"I said forget it, don't you hear me?" He yelled, he threw the album.
"Why Jungkook, why are you doing this to me, do hate me, then just hate me as much as you want, but please let me remember everything" i said, i'm crying so hard.
"Are you dumb? don't you understand? don't you know how hard i try to take care of you? I said, just forget about our fucking past memories!" He shouted, i cried, his words hurting me so much.
"Fine if you won't tell me, then i'll find out by myself" i said, wiped my tears.
"If that's what you want, then do it, but remember this, from now on i'll never care about you again, never, take care" he said without looking at me.
"Fine, i don't need your care, i can take care of myself, you don't have to worry" i replied between the tears and leave.

Jungkook's Pov
I took a deep breath, it hurts me so much to see her cry like that.
"I'm sorry y/n, i do this beacuse i lobe you, i want you to stay alive, stay healthy, if you force yourself to remember all about us, it will endanger your life, I don't want to lose you, just stay alive please"
I laid on bed, suddenly tears dropped on my cheek.
"This is too hurt, why loving someone can be this painfull?"