Sunshine

Chapter Five

T a y l o r.

Karlie was still staring at her feet, not knowing how to reply to Ellie. My heart felt crushed for her, this girl I barely knew somehow had some hold over me and I couldn't shake it off. Ellie was smiling bitterly at the girl she had just broken with only a handful of words, she was pleased with what she had done.

"I'm going to go, I probably won't see you again. Goodbye." Karlie turned on her feet and left quickly, with no warning for me to stop her. Overwhelmed with to many emotions I also stood up to leave, I needed to get the tall girl off my mind she had been burnt there from the moment she elbowed me at AA. "Come on you, you've got some making up to do." I whispered in my best seductive voice to my girlfriend who was still sat looking pleased with herself.

Ellie stood up, taking my hand that was held out for her. I knew she had many faults, and hurting the sweet girl who had just left was one of them but I love her for each and everyone of them. "You are going to apologise to Karlie, and then you are going to get us back to your hotel room so I can finally touch you after six long months. Do you understand me?" I whispered in her ear.

Ellie nodded dragging me out of the bar, Karlie was standing outside the door, in the smokers shelter head down a cigarette in her hand. She didn't notice we were standing there watching her until she lifted her head up to take another puff on the poisonous cigarette in her hand. Her green eyes seemed much duller and redder in the dark or maybe she'd been crying?

"I said I was sorry already, can't you just leave me alone? Karlie mumbled before exhaling the toxic smoke out of her nose. "No, no it's Karlie right?" Ellie started, the girl looked up at Ellie a flash of guilt in her eyes has she nodded. "Well Karlie, I'm here to apologise to you. I shouldn't have been so rude back there, I mean I totally understand why you kissed my Taylor. I mean she is rather enchanting isn't she?" Ellie asked like I wasn't there hearing every word of this conversation including the slight dig of the words 'my Taylor.'

"I really didn't mean to kiss her, I just read signs wrong. Can we all start again? I really want us all to be friends." Karlie whispered inhaling another puff of smoke into her lungs. Ellie nodded, agreeing to being friends much to my thankfulness. I didn't want to lose the tall brunette out of my life, but I didn't want to lose my girlfriend either.

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Ellie pinned me against the wall, sucking and biting at the sweet spot on my neck I was positive she was leaving marks but I hadn't been touched like this in such a long time. Moans escaped my mouth, I could feel the familiar feeling already starting up. "E-El let's lay down already."

Ellie grabbed my hand when her phone rang from her handbag that was on the floor near the door, she quickly dropped my hand and ran to pick up her phone quickly answering it.

"Hello.. Oh hey Dougie. Yeah, I'm not busy. I'm just with Taylor. We can talk." Ellie's voice was becoming quieter and quieter as she went to stand outside in the hallway to speak to her fake boyfriend. I sighed, letting my thoughts over take. Why would Ellie tell me she was going to come out to everyone if she was still going to speak to him when she should've been spending her time with me. Being with someone not famous would be so much easier but I loved Ellie, didn't I? I actually didn't know anymore.

I needed Cara and her advice urgently, but she would probably be asleep by now. Sitting on the bed head in my hands, I didn't know what to do for the best. The laughter outside getting to me, what on earth could be so funny, they're probably laughing at my stupidness, she's probably cheating on me with him but Ellie's into just girls. Or so I thought.

The mini bar at the end of the room was drawing me to it, before I knew it I was shakily pouring myself a drink of vodka, quickly downing it before Ellie returned, the cool liquid burned my throat. One drink turned to two, two into three, I know I shouldn't be doing this but I was beyond caring.

"What the hell do you think you're doing?"