The Sin Of Fate

- Chapter Forty -

When your heart has been crushed to a million pieces, the world slowly comes to a halt. Everything stops and yet the pain in your chest continues.

They same the death of a broken heart isn't common but can occur. Sadly, that will not be the case for me. Kai wouldn't allow me of that, he would rather I stay alive and suffer the pain he caused me. That decision just highlights how selfish he is because if I died then he would be the one in pain, and not me. I would be relieved of the burden of loving Kai Bliss. Loving him was crimson red like my blood that I would bleed for him.

Lizzie Bliss, Blake Bliss and my own sister swore to me that I should not fall for someone like Kai Bliss. "He can't be someone you want him to be," those were Blake's words, and they feel like forever ago. And yet even back then I knew the consequences of loving my husband and I did it anyways. Everywhere I go leads me back to him, back to this apartment that I sit in all day, everyday. Back to Vegas where we eloped and my life changed forever.

I should be angry with him, I should be... And yet I can't bring my heart to hate him. I wanted to, I needed to hate him for breaking his fake promises and more importantly smashing my heart to pieces and sadly enough I cannot hate him.

It's been a week since our last conversation, Kai tries to talk to me but I pretend not to listen because that's all I can do. Pretend that he isn't here, pretend that he's not in my life and more importantly pretend that my heart doesn't ache for him. This apartment holds our memories, and sometimes those memories and the feelings that come with remembering feels like weapons. A knife straight to the heart because that's what that betrayal did.

"Ashley, talk to me," I lean my back against the bathroom door as Kai speaks on the other side. "Please," he practically begs but we are both aware that Kai Bliss does no such thing. "Ashley," he tries again, my eyes close as if to block his words out and every-time it fails. "You haven't eaten your breakfast," he states the fact, I almost scoff at his caring words but then that would mean he cares for me and that's bullshit. If he cared for me he wouldn't have done what he did. "Ashley," Kai repeated again but this time he knocked on the door. My body slumped against the wood that separated us.

"Fine, I'll go if you do not wish to talk but I've left some food on the side," I waited for the sound of our bedroom door to close before I released a breath. I stayed like that for the next hour.

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The Next Day

I always knew I would love too much, even when I was younger I was aware that if I ever fell in love, I would fall deep. My mom used to say whoever I would come to love, would be lucky. Even my own mother knew I cared too much at a young age and that's what's cursed me. I loved Kai more than he would ever love me, surely he must have known that. He must have known that I would have bled myself dry for him. I feel like throwing up at the thought, and Kai would sit there like a goddamn machine. With no emotions, and no heart.