Fools

Part 33

the next morning, cate's p.o.v;

I turned over in the bed before removing the blanket off of me, revealing my still naked, sweetly touched body from last night. I got up and noticed Lilah wasn't in bed with me, I didn't suspect anything really so I reached for my phone to check the time. It was 9:38, I saw I had a couple of texts.

from; zo <33
'good morning sweetface! i hope to see you & lilah today:) come swing by my house around 1? let's talk deets <3 xo'
from; my cup of joe <3 (funny, i didn't think to change joe's name in my phone)
'i know i'm the last person you want to hear from, but i'd really like to talk to you. you know whenever you get the chance. in person though. at least before you go back to uni.'
from; syd<3 
'hey, how are you? haven't heard from you since my last text, did you get my text btw? anyways, love you, miss you.'

I replied really quick to the messages before Lilah came through the room door.
response to sydney;
'heyy, yes girl i did get your text! sorry i didn't respond sooner, it's been a crazy ass weekend so far and we're not even back at uni yet lol. but i did read it, i'm so happy for you! i really hope it works out for you, love you<3'
response to zoe;
'hii, good morning, yes lilah and i will be there:) see you soon xx'
response to joe;
'yeah we can do that. i'll let you know when i'm back at the house."

I felt my phone buzz again after I sent them but didn't bother to check them again. 
"Hey you, I brought some breakfast from down in their little breakfast area." She giggled.
"Thanks, that's too sweet of you. Did you already eat?" I asked.
"I just had a little something, I wasn't real hungry but I wanted you to eat." I smiled. "So um, if you don't mind me asking," She began. "What are your thoughts on um, last night?" I could see her smirk, I smiled again.
"Well, I quite enjoyed it." I told her.
"I can tell," She laughed. "You didn't bother to get dressed yet?" I paused then looked down, realizing I was literally still butt-naked.
"Oh my god, no." We both laughed. "I did not." 
"Well then, I enjoyed it also, I feel closer to you and like I didn't expect it to happen but I'm glad it did." She said and smiled.
"Me too love, me too. So um, Zoe texted me a little bit ago letting me know for us to meet her at her house around 1 today."
"Alrighty, well I guess I should start getting ready."
"Yeah, me too." She got up from the bed and started walking over to the bathroom. "There's another thing." She turned around. "Joe texted me earlier too, he said he wants to talk to me before we head back to Uni."
"Well that's good isn't it?" She asked, I turned to look at her then turned away.
"Yeah, I mean, yeah." It was quiet for a second.
"Is that not okay?" 
"Of course it's okay, I just I don't know really how to feel about the fact that this is the end of me and Joe. Like this is where we have to both come to an understanding that it's over."
"Cate, let me ask you this and I want you to be totally honest with me. I know you and I aren't official or even touched base on what we are," She came over and sat next to me again. "I know you still care about Joe, do you want to try again with him, you know like a re-do?" I scoffed.
"I can't believe you're asking me this. Both you and Caspar, it's like you guys don't believe that I'm done with him."
"No! Cate, it's not that. I totally understand where you're coming from with it all and I get how you feel but I mean you had to have had something for him, it doesn't just go away just like that." I turned to face her.
"Look. Joe and I yes, we had some bloody great times. We did things that I never thought I'd live to do, but he cheated. He decided that he wanted something else whether it was to fill a void or fulfill a fantasy or what the fuck ever. But he had a his fucking chance. I'm done hearing all of these things and I swear if I talk to Zoe, because I know she'll bring it up and wants me to give him a second chance? I might just have to walk out." She grabbed my hand, I sighed. "I dealt with this shit constantly with Scott, and even after when there was a dating pool, all men are the fucking same and I don't feel like he deserves another chance no matter how much or how little I feel for him because he's the one who fucked up. If he even remotely felt like 'oh shit this is wrong' or 'oh I actually love my girlfriend' then maybe we wouldn't be in this situation. But people have to be held accountable and it's up to the person who was put into it, to make the decision on whether or not we should continue." She squeezed my hand. "Joe will always be my friend and he will always be around in my life, but no I am not getting back together with him."
"Okay." She replied, she pulled me into a hug. I gripped her tight.
"Lilah I fucking like you okay? If for even a moment I thought that I either wanted Joe back or even to be by myself, I would let you know. So don't ask when you know where my head is at." I told her, we pulled away and she nodded her head. I gave her a kiss before she got back up and headed back towards the bathroom. 

This whole situation just really pissed me off, at this point I don't even want to go see Zoe. I feel terrible for even thinking this way of Joe, knowing it's her brother and she's one of my best friends makes it worse. Could she even begin to understand how I feel? I facepalmed and sighed again. I need a fucking drink.

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