Fools

Part 16

Later that Day;

Caspar and I decided to stay at the house to wait for Joe to come home, it's been a few hours and the longer it took for Joe to come home made me re-think even coming here. I missed Joe, I needed Joe, but how long was it going to take to fix everything?? I sound so stupid oh my god. I felt like I couldn't even think right. Caspar was asleep on the couch next to me and I debated on just going back to Zoe's. I looked around for a good second while thinking about it until I got up and walked towards the door. I tried to open the door but there he was, Joseph Sugg. I didn't even think twice before hugging him tightly. He wrapped his arms around me and I breathed in his scent.

"Cate, I'm so sorry." Joe said softly, I closed my eyes and faintly smiled, we pulled away. "I should've never said those things to you, I was an asshole and I've been thinking of ways to just come apologize to you. I should've never blamed you for anything. I love you so much Cate, I never want to lose you." Joe kept rambling on and saying all these sweet things to me, my smile ended up growing bigger and I reached up to kiss him.
"Joe, I love you. You won't lose me, I need you. More than ever now actually." I told him.
"I just want us to be okay, I don't want this to come between us."
"Nothing will come between us Joe unless you let it. You are mine and I am yours." He pulled me into another hug. There was a pause before we pulled away again. "I decided to take 2 weeks off before going back to school, I'm not ready to go back and face everyone. But the good thing about it is, I have access to our lessons through files so I can work from here, not be behind and still be with you." Joe smiled.
"That's great my love, but you do need to go back when the 2 weeks are up. University was important to you, don't let that go." I nodded my head.
"I won't, I promise." He kissed my forehead and I felt that sense of peace again, it returned. Joe and I fixed this.

The Next Day;

I rolled over to Joe's side of the bed, I saw him peacefully sleeping. No matter how at peace I felt with Joe, I still felt like a part of me was missing. Yeah we did fix things, but we only fixed things between us, what was I supposed to do about the rest of my life that's fucked up? I ran my fingers through my hair then got up from bed.

"Mornin Cate, how'd you sleep?" Caspar asked when I reached the kitchen, I smiled and sat down at the island.
"I didn't sleep the greatest. Just was nice not sleeping alone for a change, it got lonely at Zo's."
"I bet. Here." He set down a plate of eggs & biscuits in front of me.
"Thank you, where's Oli? Haven't seen him around since like the first day I got back." I asked with a mouth full of eggs.
"Yeah, he hasn't been around much, he's been seeing someone so he's always gone all the time." Caspar came around the island and sat next to me. "How are you doing? You know, with everything and Joe?"
"I actually don't know," I turned to face him. "I finally feel better after Joe and I had made up, because I felt so empty at Zo's without him. But now that I have Joe again, it doesn't feel any different. Like nothing's changed." I explained. "Caspar, what if I never live this thing with Scott down? How am I supposed to just go back to University and face everyone?"
"You just gotta do it. You gotta face it and show everyone you're stronger than what they think of you."
"I literally lost Syd, she thinks I slept with Scott because I wanted too."
"Along with Scott, I never liked Sydney either. She's only ever been there through your rough times, she never appreciated your highest points. Like she loved it when you were down." Caspar explained. My head went down to the floor and I started playing with my fingers. I hated knowing I was alone and everyone noticed I was. Caspar placed his hand on my back and began rubbing it. "Cate, you're worth so much more than what these people are going to make you feel like when you get back. And even though Joe, Zo, Oli and I, won't be there to be right by your side, we're always just one phone call away. You are not alone." It's like he read my mind on that last part. I flashed a faint smile and nodded my head.
I got up from the island and gave him a kiss on the cheek. "Thank you for breakfast, I love you." He smiled at me and nodded his head.
"I love you too Cate." Caspar replied back as I started walking back to the room where Joe was.

That Same Morning - Joe's p.o.v;
I turned over on the bed and saw Cate wasn't there on her side. I smiled as I placed my hand on her pillow, even though I always sleep in so she never gets to wake up with me, I love knowing she was right next to me during the night. I'm realizing that we really haven't gotten to talk about what happened with her and Scott much at all, during it, we argued, she left, I came back, we made up, and forgot about it. I don't want to put any pressure on her by asking and asking, I just don't know how to be there for her if I barely know anything. I guess whenever she's ready, we can try.

I got up from bed and made it so Cate didn't have too. I picked out both of our outfits, knowing she'd look cute in whatever she'd put on, and left them on the bed. I went into the bathroom and started the shower water when I heard Cate coming back in. I quickly turned off the water and hid behind the bathroom door.
"Joe?" She called out. "I see you're awake, Caspar made breakfa-Aw Joey, you picked out our...outfits...uh yeah, I'm not wearing that." She laughed, and I held in mine. "Joeee! I know you're in here. Come out pleaseee, you know I don't want to be scared. And plus, we need to pick out a new outfit for me because I am NOT wearing that." I tried so hard to keep from laughing, but I finally let it out. "Joee, I think I know where you are now." I heard footsteps towards the door and there she came peaking her head into the bathroom. 
"BAH!!" I jumped out from behind and tried scaring her. Cate jumped a little bit then hit me on my shoulder.
"Don't fucking do that!!" She smacked her lips and laughed. "Now come on, what are we doing today? What'd you pick outfits out for?" I smirked and walked out of the bathroom.
"You'll see."

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hiiii! I know I haven't updated in sooo long, like a year I think? Stuff has been kinda crazy & I forgot about writing this book lol, but maybe I'll get back into it? no promises;) hope everyone had a merry Christmas <3 -destiny