Fools

Part 52

lilah's pov;

As soon as we got back to the house, I rushed into the room I had my stuff in and grabbed everything. I rushed towards the door, Caspar was waiting for me in the car. Cate was standing there, watching as I was making my way out. I wanted to just completely break down right then and there. The stress from the whole situation was getting me hard but I couldn't do that in front of her. I just couldn't wait to get back home and see Ashton & Syd, I needed them both right now.

"So this is it then?" Cate said as I opened the door, what is this? A movie? I turned and looked at her.
"I mean, yeah."
"Alright. Don't think you can ever talk to me again." I rolled my eyes.
"I wasn't planning on it." I turned around then walked right out the door, I didn't even give her a second look. I'm honestly just over it, I will never even want to talk to her again. Leaving our friendship is probably going to be the best decision I've ever made. I just wonder how it's going to impact Joe and I's friendship now that they're together again.

I got into the car and Caspar immediately pulled out of the driveway, I let out a sigh of relief. I took my hair out of the ponytail I had it in and ran my fingers through it. I looked at Caspar for a moment, then I turned away to look out of the window. What does this mean for my friendship with Caspar? Zoe now?

"Hey. Um- Caspar?" I said softly, he turned to me. "We're alright, right? Like we're still friends?" I asked.
"Yeah. I mean I understand where you're coming from with Cate. Both of you actually, I understand both sides. I love her, she's my sister but sometimes she needs a bit of tough love. She needed to hear what you said." He told me.
"I just know I said something's that were pretty harsh and because she's your sister, it's disrespectful to you."
"Yeah, I know. I won't lie, some of it was yeah. But it's not going to make me hate you or anything. Joe and her have had some pretty bad fights, I've heard some things and it doesn't make me turn a blind eye to them."
"But you guys also have known each other for years and years, I've only just became friends with you guys."
"Right. But you mean something to Joe, you're a really good friend to him and I see he appreciates it. And deep down you know that Cate cares about you too. You're going to be in this for a little. The family I mean." He said.
"Okay."
"Okay? So don't worry about it." He smiled at me. I nodded and faintly smiled back. 

I fell asleep on the way back to campus. Caspar nudged me to wake me up once we arrived. I opened my eyes and saw people walking around, backpacks on, in groups of friends. I let out a sigh of relief once I noticed where I was.

"Thanks Caspar, it was sort've an okay weekend, I appreciate it." I told him with a smile.
"No problem, let me know when you wanna come back." He joked.
"Oh yeah, that'll um be a minute." I laughed. "See ya." He waved to me before I got out of the car. I watched him as he drove away before walking off. Before I made my way back to my dorm, I put my headphones in and had my music on shuffle. I felt like I could finally breathe on my way back, the air felt so fresh. I closed my eyes and tilted my head up, I let the music play as I kept walking. I just took this entire moment in. 

I finally reached my dorm and took out my key to unlock the door when Sydney opened it. I let out another deep breath before dropping my bags and giving her a hug. I could feel myself tear up.

"Oh my god am I so excited to see you." I said softly, I hugged her tighter.
"Hey, you okay?" She asked, she started to rub my back. I pulled away after a second and wiped away my tears.
"Ugh, my god it was horrible." I told her, she grabbed my hand and we walked inside the room.

cate's pov;

I was pacing around my room, my mind racing. I didn't know how to feel right now. Ever since Lilah left I haven't been able to sit down. Just, what even happened dude? I can't even like mentally process the entire argument, let alone the entire fucking day. I couldn't wait for Caspar to get back home. I really need to talk to someone, let this whole thing relieve my chest. I really want to talk to Joe but I just feel like he'd take her side and tell me to stop being just what she called me, a bitch. It's just embarrassing. I want to run and hide. Shit fucking sucks. I'm not even mad about not being friends with her either, whether that leaves me friends with Sydney? I don't know. I honestly don't care, they can have each other.

I finally was able to sit down on my bed, I pulled out my phone to text Joe.

to; my cup of joe <3
'you're never going to believe what happened.'

He took a good five minutes before he responded, the anticipation really kicked in.

from; my cup of joe <3
'what happened love?'

c; 'so lilah and i aren't friends anymore. and i'm sure that counts for sydney also.'
j; 'what happened??'
c; 'when we were leaving she was just acting weird so i called her out on it. she got upset i did and we argued from there.'
j; 'is that the full story?'
c; 'i mean.'
j; 'tell me.'
c; 'i just called her out, she got mad, i told her that she needed to admit that she has a thing for you. then it escalated from there, things were said.'
j; 'what was said cate? damn like tell me the full story.'
j; 'and why do you keep thinking we have something for each other?? we've both said otherwise.'
c; 'oh come on, i see the way you guys look at each other. how close you are.'
j; 'cate why would i have gotten back together with you if i thought i had a chance with her.'
c; 'i don't know maybe to make me jealous?'
j; 'really? you would think i'd do that? maybe this wasn't a good idea to get back together if you really think this way.'
c; 'no please. i want to be together.'
j; 'are you positive? i don't want any doubts this time cate. things are different and if you're not up for change then maybe you aren't for me anymore.'
c; 'but i thought you'd love me no matter what?'
j; 'cate come on. i just got into a good mental state, i'm doing well. i can't jeopardize that. not even for you.'
c; 'wow. i see.'
j; 'cate, you really want me to get bad again? because of this? our relationship? i wouldn't wish that on my worst enemy the way i felt. you need to be more considerate. i love you, but you really do.'
c; 'yeah, i'm sorry joe. i don't want that for you either, i'm really proud of you. i would never want to harm your process. i just don't know who i am sometimes anymore and i apologize.'
j; 'it's okay. just forget about what happened between you and lilah, i don't really want to hear anymore of it. i'm sure lilah will mention it also and i'll say the same thing to her.'
c; 'joe, i don't know if i want you to continue being friends with her. it would just make me upset with me not being friends with her and you are.'
j; 'i understand and i'm sorry that you guys aren't friends anymore but that's not up to you. we're adults cate. i can be friends with her if i choose to.'
c; 'but how would you feel? would you want me doing that to you? if i was friends with scott?'
j; 'cate that's completely different. scott was an ex, lilah's been and will continue to be a friend. plus you and i both know that you wouldn't willingly be friends with scott.'
j; 'she's a good friend to me, a value in my life. you don't want that for me?'

I locked my phone, and threw it to the other side of my bed. I didn't even bother replying, I'd just get more upset. Joe had a point, and I'll probably come to terms with it and be okay with it eventually. Everything is just so fresh that I just can't let it go. I just needed to talk to Caspar, maybe he'd help me feel better. I curled up with my pillow and eventually I fell asleep.

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