DEAR MY STAR ► hajeongwoo

thirty-five ➵ msk

【CHAPTER THIRTY FIVE】
ˋcomfortˊ

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"Can I be honest with you?" the director started off talking to Junkyu.

Junkyu doubtfully nodded and smiled.

"I am a bit disappointed with your acting skills. Is that all you've got?" Junkyu was startled the remark from the director.

"Honestly, I wanted you to cast my drama since you're one of the hottest celebrities today and it will be a great opportunity to cast you. But your acting sucks" Junkyu tried his best not to show that he was hurt.

"I know sir" that's the only thing he could say.

"Improve yourself next time" Junkyu tried his best to flash his usual bright smile but with what he just heard?

He just think he can't do it. He had received several comments from people but it still hurts him to hear something like this.

The director tapped his shoulders as he left him alone.

"Kyu! What did he say?" Yoshi excitedly asked his handled artist when he saw that the director had left the room.

Junkyu heaved a deep sigh before facing his manager. He was trying his best to hold back his tears, he doesn't want to make Yoshi worried after all.

"Nothing, they just congratulated me for the movie, nothing else" Junkyu answered without even looking at his personal assistant's eyes.

"Are you okay though?"

"Huh?"

"Are you okay? You look sad, are you that's what the director said?" upon hearing the question from the personal assistant, his tears immediately escaped from his eyes.

"Junkyu.."

"I'm sorry, let me go out for a minute" Junkyu didn't even waited for Yoshi's response when he immediately ran outside the venue and breathe.

His eyes lingered around and he was actually on the outdoor parking lot. He hates it when he is crying because it feels like he was suffocating, he was gasping for air nonstop when he cries that's why he hates it.

Addition to that, he left his coat inside the room. He hates it so much when he's cold.

He just sat on the parking blocks and let himself cry and cry until he feels better. But at the mean time, he just can't handle the pain his heart heels.

He never had someone told him something like that although Junkyu completely understand the director wanted.

It just disappoints him that he thought he was good, his acting is great but in the end here he was. It feels like all the confidence he gathered all throughout the years crumbled down.

"You did great, don't believe him" he immediately stops sobbing and slowly looked up to someone he heard talking.

His eyes widened upon seeing his co-actor.

Mashiho.

Junkyu panicked upon seeing him and wiped his tears quickly.

He heard the guy chuckled before saying something that somehow flutters his heart.

"You don't need to wipe your tears. You can cry to me whenever you want" the japanese actor suddenly spoke.

"But I look ugly"

He again heard the guy laughed cutely.

"I don't care about it, as long as you let your feelings out, it's okay. You don't have to worry about your appearance" at that sentence, it made Junkyu cry more.

He was the only person to say this to him, to keep on crying when he saw him.

"Are you okay?" the japanese actor asked him.

"I-I'm okay, I was just hurt about what the director said earlier but I understand what he wants to say. Maybe I was just a little sensitive to cry about it"

"I heard him"

"You did?"

"Yeah that's why I don't want you to talk about it if it still hurts you. It makes me sad too" Junkyu immediately giggled in between his tears.

He is really the cutest.

"I can see that you're trying your best when we are on the shooting. You know, some people can't see our efforts to improve but easy to judge us when we do wrong" Junkyu turned to the japanese actor as they're eyes met.

He can feel his heart started to race. He swore that this guy often makes him feel things.

"But not anyone is like that. Some people can see all of your efforts or how good of you as a person, I hope you don't dwell on what the director too much"

"You're Kim Junkyu, you are already good as you are. Everyone is proud of you" Mashiho said as he smiled warmly on the korean male.

Junkyu was honestly touched for what the japanese actor to comfort him but he's curious on why he was doing it otherwise.

"I truly appreciate your words, Mashi. Thank you" the korean male thanked him and displayed his warm smile at the actor that made the japanese feel at ease.

"I think I should go back there. Yoshi was probably looking for me"

The korean male was all ready to go back to the venue of the party when someone grabbed his wrist, stopping him from walking away.

"Yes? You need anything?" Junkyu asked the younger as he saw him reaching for his hand.

"I.." Junkyu was waiting for the latter to response because it seriously looks like he was struggling to construct words to say.

"Meet me after the presscon tomorrow"

Junkyu then creased his forehead in question, "Why?"

"I just want to tell you something I had been keeping for the past few months. No pressure though, I will wait for you"

After the statement from the latter, he immediately ran away without even waiting for a response from Junkyu.

"What could that be?"Junkyu questioned himself.

to be continued..

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[missing mashikyu :((]