One Last Hope

Chapter 48

⭐️“Friendly reminder that ‘doing your best’ does not mean pushing yourself to the point of a mental breakdown.”⭐️
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The last couple of hours have really dragged.

Lorie hasn't been all that pleasant and on top of that, Drogo didn't show up for dinner.

I don't know what to think anymore. Is he being distant... or am I too clingy?

As I wallow in depression, I think back to Sarah's remarks earlier. I lay down on my bed, my arms dangling by my sides, staring up at the ceiling.

What if Sarah was right? What if I'm changing? I feel so mad! I can't contain it any longer.

It's as if there's a dark, fiery force hanging over me.

When I think about it, I feel so scared. I feel such anger... and I know it's going to have to come out at some point!

I know what Sarah thinks, but I'm not sure it has anything to do with Drogo. This is something else.

Could it be something to do with my powers?

I'm not all that sure. This animosity that I'm trying to conceal goes way back.

Maybe it's something to do with the death of my parents?

Am I refusing to forgive them for abandoning me? That's ridiculous! They didn't choose to die...

That's probably why I feel so close to Drogo. With all this anger I have... maybe unconsciously... his wounds resonate with mine.

I hate being alone. At times like this, I feel I might implode and literally freak out.

Peter: "Things are spinning out of control. Tell me what's wrong..."

He comes into my room and sits down next to me.

Peter: "I suppose my brother had something to do with it?"

Nora: "He's so..."

Peter: "Stop, I don't want to know the details..."

Nora: "I don't have much to say, actually. I haven't seen him since this morning..."

Peter: "And just because you haven't seen him, you think he's ignoring you?"

I give him a skeptical look. I don't need him to reassure me.

Peter: "I think he's keeping his distance because he changes when he sees you... and it disturbs him."

Nora: "Of course."

Peter: "Nora... Don't play innocent. He's not as..."

Nora: "Bad as I think?"

Peter coughs to conceal his laughter.

Peter: "I know it's hard to imagine but... yes."

Whatever! My feelings won't change.

Nora: "Maybe... But he has a strange power over me."

Peter: "And vice versa... It's quite strange. I've never seen such an attraction between Drogo and a human... He doesn't usually get attached."

Nora: "Are you telling me I'm as freaky as he is and that's why he's interested in me?"

Peter hugs my shoulders and stares at me with his sad eyes.

Peter: "No, I'm not..."

Nora: "Well, I feel like I'm constantly changing... I've always been calm and reasonable. Maybe too much... But lately I'm angry and I don't seem to have any boundaries... I say everything that comes into my head without worrying about the consequences. It's just not like me."