the perfect mistake

Chapter 1: please dont go

ARIAS POV:
"Ezra I love you. I tried to kill it. I was scared scared to be with you. but I'm going to break up with Andrew because I love you and always have and always will." "Aria he can give you all you ever wanted." "No your all I ever wanted. I love you. I love every part of you. I could never tell Andrew he'd never loose me because it wouldn't be true. Your the one I never wanted to loose." He kissed me as hard as he could against the wall. "Look I need to go tell Andrew." "I want to go with you." He said as he reached for my hand. We went walking towards my car parked outside when someone came up and tried to reach into Ezra's pocket. he got in a fight I tried breaking it up till someone pulled out a gun. and pulled the trigger. I fell to my knees to catch him. within 5 minutes of telling the person I love, I still loved him, and always would gets shot. "Why didn't you just let him take your wallet was it even worth it?" I said gently to him as tears from from my face as I rubbed my hand on his cheek. Do I ruin everything I touch? I cried as I held him in my arms I called the police. I listened as he repeated how sorry he was and how much he loved me. I cried as I kissed him one last time as his eyes shut. I knew he was gone. he has to be but as they drove him away I knew I only had one thing I could do to save him. maybe the universe was telling me we aren't meant to be. I prayed he'd live to see another day. I knew in that moment if he did live I couldn't ever be with him. If he lives I'll stay with Andrew and move on in my life even though I know he'll stay around forever ruining mine if he lives. But I can't live without him. It's the hardest thing I've ever done and if he's really gone I don't know what I'll do to myself. They took him from my arms and put him in an ambulance I was asked questions for a good hour. I drove to the hospital but once I got there i was running towards the desk until I heard the nurse say "mrs. Fitzgerald. Part of the bullet traveled to his heart. We need you here right away." I stopped in my tracks and turned around I ran out of the hospital screaming beating myself up for telling him how I felt for him was still the same it was a year ago. I ran to the bridge down the road. It was cold outside. I got on the ledge and wanted to leave. Leave the world behind because I knew he was gone and if I couldn't be with him in this life then I want to in another. he's the world I loved. He's the reason I loved this miserable place even though he's hurt me I could never stop loving him. I knew Andrew was on his way to the hospital I called and asked him to come meet me there. I heard someone yelling. "Aria!?" I couldn't see in the distance until he got closer. "Please don't do it. Please I care for you I really do. If you jump I'm coming with you. Don't you dare do it Aria." It was Andrew. I shook my head and smiled as tears were already running down my face. As my face was tensed up from crying I still managed a gentle smile. "I'm sorry." And jumped. Jumped in the river. I fell hard and went all the way under I hit my head on a rock on my way down I was moving down stream and it was hard to breathe. I saw this whiteness coming towards me in the water. It was Ezra reaching for my hand. He seemed happy. He was in all white but in reality Ezra didn't save me. Andrew pulled me up. I was on conscious. He pulled me to shore and tried to wake me up. When I finally woke up. He carried me back to the street and to his car. He wrapped his jacket around me. "Why'd you do it Aria? You deserve to be here as much as anyone else." He said I smiled "I'm sorry. Can we just please go back to your place?" I pleaded. I went back to his house and changed into some of his pj's he handed me one of his shirts it said Hollis college on it. It reminded me of EZRAS except it didn't have his sweet scent. I got under a blanket and got warm. He curled up next to me on his bed "thank you." He said. and I fell fast asleep. I woke up from a dream. Someone's sent me a message in my sleep. "He's alive." I told Andrew I was sorry when I woke up I just really needed to be somewhere I'd be back. As I ran out I heard the words "I love you." I acted as if I didn't hear the words when I shut the door and got a taxi and rushed to the hospital. rushed to the hospital to make sure he was alive. He was he really was. I was so happy. But then I saw him start to wake up but I had to leave because I couldn't allow him to remind me of last night. I have to move on now. Later that day Andrew called me if we could have dinner together I agreed and got ready for our date. I got there he already had my favorite things ordered. We talked until he brought back the words I was so scared to hear. The words it took Ezra forever to tell me. I was scared because I didn't feel the same for Andrew. But I made my promise and had to lie because I knew I'd grow to love him. I just have too. I told him I loved him too. He smiled as he heard me repeat him. he knelt down on one knee and proposed...