the perfect mistake

Chapter 16: the end of us

ARIAS POV:
"Aria how could you? You probably just broke Ezra passed his breaking point." Hanna said busting in my door practically. "Hanna there's nothing left to break. I hurt him more than he's ever hurt me. Everything he's done couldn't compare to this. flaunting a guy in his face is horrible. His face when he realized I was pregnant I just wanted him to say he'd love me through it all. I saw his heart break in two in that moment and mine did too. I said all that because I wanted to say it to Ezra. When he didn't pull me off stage I made peace with it." "With what?" "Him not loving me. Look I want to be alone please go home."

EZRAS POV:
after arias party I took Jackie back home in a taxi. once we got there she started throwing herself at me and I couldn't look at Jackie like that right now. "Let's take it slow, okay?" I said so she wouldn't seem offended that I actually didn't want her in anyway. possibly just in the moment. She agreed and smiled and fell asleep next to me on the couch. I got up after she fell asleep and laid on my bed. I felt lost. my heart heart it ached knowing she was having another mans baby. but maybe someday I won't remember this pain that I think will last forever and ever. It's 4:49 am and I've been up all night. I missed you just like I did last week at 3pm in the afternoon. No matter what you told me yesterday it didn't matter. I remembered the last time you told me you wanted me as I walked out. You really meant it but I didn't believe you. It's 4:50am and I should be sleeping but all I can think about angel like face laying next to me as you slept. Or the way you interwinded or legs together while we were asleep. Or the way you'd always pull my arms around you if I moved away as I fell asleep. All I can think about is how you used to smile when I told you how beautiful you were and the way you pulled me close and held on tight like it was the last time you'd ever see me and say you could never let me go. But I guess things change people move on. People grow up. Which I have. Now you're sleeping and I'm up thinking about you. but I've finally made peace with us never being together ever again. So maybe I should give Jackie a chance?

ARIAS POV:
I woke up feeling more miserable than usual. The normal fatigue and throwing. I woke to being wrapped in Andrews arms that was different. but it was the look on ezras face when I told him I was pregnant with another mans baby. he looked completely broken. like it was the last thorn I could stick in his heart before he dies inside. that's the only reason I cried. because part of me really wanted it to be his. but me and Andrew have also had sex but only once about a week or two before I got sick and I also got with Ezra while being with Andrew right about the same time I got sick. I felt worse. All I could picture all day was Ezras face. The way his face fell from a smile to a upset broken kinda puppy dog look while his eyes watered. The way he choked up why he was talking after I said it the way he stuttered and put his hand through his hair and held his mouth for a minute trying to hold back the gasps and sighs. then he walked out. then I knew that was the end of us and there was no reason worth trying anymore. Even though I'm the one sick in the morning I had to deal with a hangover Andrew and everything I held back from Ezra last night why I was on the building or bridge hurt even more. If i would've told him maybe he would tell me he loved me. but I'm getting through it. I decided to drive Andrew home and when he sobers up I plan on telling him about my pregnancy or possibly at the engagement dinner when we practice our dance I don't know. It's all becoming too much of a harsh reality.