the perfect mistake

Chapter 8: desires

EZRAS POV:
I'm really leaving. The bags are still sitting in my car and no one can stop me. I'm going back to my home town. Maybe I'll meet someone. I just need my mind off all this stress.

ARIAS POV:
The next day my mom took the binder away from me for the wedding saying I was much too distracted once again. I knew I was but I couldn't agree with her. I aloud her to finish the wedding planning herself because it seems she takes it everyday. but I have like this part of me that wants to push the wedding further. Like an extra month. I decided I wanted to go talk to Andrew about it before I got ready for the ball tonight. I drove to his apartment and knocked on the door. He greeted me with a proper hello. Two welcoming lips and two arms that just clings onto you. I let go of his warm lips "we can save that for tonight." I laughed "but hey I really need to talk to you about something." I walked towards him and wrapped my arms around his neck. "You know I love you right?" "Yeah yeah of course." He said "okay just I wanna push the wedding a month further I just feel rushed with everything and I just want it to be perfect and I don't want to forget anything. My moms constantly having this feeling something's missing but everything already seems so much together I know we still have three weeks to plan in but let's just push another month I think 7 weeks will be more than enough. Is that okay?" "yeah yeah of course. if that's what you want. Whatever you want in okay with." He said as he smiled and kissed my nose I giggled and kissed him goodbye "hey thanks for understanding. But I need to go get ready for tonight." He smiled and told me goodbye. I walked out and drove and got some coffee and ran into Ezra I mean I should've known considering it's his place. he told me my coffee was on the house I went walking out when he asked if I wanted to go on a walk. "Eh I don't know if that's such a great idea. maybe we can talk at the ball tonight. I don't know I really must be going. Thank you for this." "No problem Aria." He gently smiled I walked out got in my car and headed back home. I took a sip of my coffee. I realized it was exactly how I liked it. 2 shots of French vanilla 1 shot of espresso 2 sugars and vanilla powdering on top of the cream. It was exactly how I liked it without my asking. He knew the little things about me which I loved about him. I smiled went home and got ready. I put on my dress put on some makeup and put my hair in an up do type bun with loose curls hanging out. It was around 5 ish once I was done. I knew Andrew would be late so I asked Hanna to pick me up. When we arrived the photographers were just snapping pictures of everyone with their dates as they walked in. I saw Ezra get out of a limo. I smiled he walked near me asked "where's Andrew?" "Oh he'll be late. Would you like to be my escort?" "of course." He said as he reached for my hand and walked me in. we walked towards the bar "want something to drink?" "Yeah sure thanks." He walked up to the bartender and got us two drinks as some women comes up to him "you like lonely. Need someone?" "No no he has someone." I said as I grabbed his hand and my drink in the other and he just looked me in the eyes and smiled as I walked towards the dance floor. he wrapped his arms around my waist but kept a distance. I pulled him close. "Aria please don't." "Why?" "I just can't." I wrapped my arms around his neck and rated my head on his chest. "I moved the wedding further..." he slowed down even slower than we were already dancing. "What why?" He said cautiously "I needed more time to plan it. I haven't been feeling well lately and I'm just so distracted." "Yeah I understand." "Look I need to go. I have somewhere I must be right now." "Is there another girl?" "What? No. Even if there was whys it matter? Aria you just seem so clingy to me tonight. you know how much I care for you but I'm always the one getting hurt now." "Ezra I have to ask you something?" "What anything." He said stepping back away from me letting me go. "What do you want? Isn't there someone else you can torture? Every time I try to move on you are right there." " probably but I want you. And Right now? A time machine so I could go back and avoid all the mistakes. And you'd still be mine and no one else's. I haven't given up on you yet Montgomery. How do you feel about us hooking up you never told me your actual answer." "Horrible. There's this feeling in my stomach like I need to tell him but in scared." "That's what I thought. We're holding onto this pain because it's all we have left. And quite frankly I don't think I can hold on much longer." "Please don't leave. Everyone leaves and your all that I have that feels real in my life." He stepped back in towards me. grabbed both of my hands and rubbed his arms up and down mine. "I could never leave you. I thought you hated me for my scene I made at your engagement party." "I could never hate you Ezra. I love you too much." "Then give in to your desires and needs and realize I will love you until the last day." "I just can't.." "Why?" "Because he doesn't make scenes.." "Yeah he doesn't get your blood going either or your heart racing" he said gripping me tight around my waist and getting close. "he does. You were right he'll be here soon. I'll go wait for him somewhere else." I said it with all the power I could because his arms made me weak to my knees and I'm so glad I didn't just give in. "You know what I shouldn't have walked you in here. it was a mistake. Just like my first mistake. falling in love with you." with tears in my eyes I waked away.