the perfect mistake

Chapter 50: all the time

ARIAS POV:
"Ezra where's my wedding ring?" he pointed to the counter and I got it and put it back on. I never want to take it off again. "good." he smirked. I smiled and pulled him close and kissed him hard. I pulled away because my stomach started to growl. Ezra took me to breakfast but when we got back I was tired. Ezra sat on the couch and I went and rested my head in his lap and fell asleep. he played with my hair till I fell asleep. I woke up and saw him staring at me I smiled. "oh my god I remembered I still have food." I jumped up and ran to the kitchen. I stood there and ate my French toast by hand on the counter. Ezra stared and smiled I wanted to know what he was thinking but he's just so cute staring at me.

EZRAS POV:
when she jumped up realizing she still had food with that huge smile it was funny yet cute I realized I've never loved anyone as much as her. I want to ask her why she puts herself in front of the bullet all these times for me but not yet I don't want to argue. it seems that's all we did.

*1 week later**

ARIAS POV:
I came in the apartment and threw my stuff on the table. "what's wrong?" Ezra asked. "Nothing." I just didn't want to tell him it was Hollis. "Aria what's wrong?" I stared at him. "Hollis if you want me to be honest." "why what-" "I don't like it. it's just not what I wanted it to be." "Aria I told-" "stop I'm taking a shower and going to bed." I kept cutting him off. this argument repeated for about a week. "Aria I didn't ask you to pack up and move back here!" he yelled. "Yeah I know maybe I should've stayed." "maybe you should've then maybe you wouldn't have been shot!" "what did you just say?" "nothing Aria." he sighed. I finally broke down and let the tears fall. I threw my hands up "Ezra I can't keep doing this." he came over and tried wrapping me in a hug I pushed him away. I went and laid on the bed. it was getting late Ezra came and laid down too. we keep space in between us at night. we sleep with our backs facing each other. there's no affection anymore. when I woke up we didn't talk we didn't kiss. I just saw him sitting there tying his shoe and I walked out and went to Hollis. I come home there's dinner on the table. he already ate. I sat there and ate. Ezra and I haven't talked in two weeks now. haven't touched each other nothing. finally before I left for Hollis I said "ezra were married we live together we can't just ignore each other. We can't keep doing this anymore. I want to talk but I'm done." I slammed the door and went to Hollis. I realized after weeks of silence that we make better strangers than anything else. I've lost him. everything has changed. It's hard to accept it. I guess he's gone. He's just gone and there's no getting him back. I want to be with him it's as simple and as complicated as that. I'm scared for what in going to come home and say.

EZRAS POV:
there she goes again. every morning it's the same we don't talk we don't kiss we don't even look at each other. except I will occasionally look at her because she's so beautiful. I knew she'd grow to resent me moving back here. I want to tell her how beautiful she is from where I'm sitting and I just want to wrap my arms around her. I hear her cry at night and it's all my fault. her words cut me deeper than a knife. I don't know how to make this slow down. I want to tell her I know there's things we need to talk about but she won't let me. what are we even becoming? I want to hold her so bad but it just seems like we act like we don't know each other and I don't think she cares either way. What happened to the Aria I fell in love with? I just wanna go back in time. I looked at our picture sitting next to the bed. I picked it up. love can hurt but it's not love if it doesn't I guess. I mean that's how you know it's real. Our hearts were never broken in it. All she did was say a single word and made my heart open and now here we are. I sat on the couch all day waiting. waiting for what's to come through that door.

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btw some of the pictures I use as a cover photo have nothing to do with the chapters. but some do so just keep that in mind hahah.