the perfect mistake

Chapter 26: respond

EZRAS POV:
Aria never responded to my text. It's been two days. another shot of whiskey can't hurt I wish she'd walk in like she once did before. I heard a knock on the door. I practically ran to it. It was Aria. She jumped in my arms. "I said I wouldn't call or see you again but I lost all control and here I am." she pulled my face in tight and kissed me hard. it got hot quickly. she finally pulled away for air and before I knew it her legs were wrapped around my hips and I walked her towards the bed. but this hurts having her but not having her you know? but I'd rather hurt than have nothing at all. I laid her on my bed. and pulled her shirt off. I softly laid kisses from her stomach up her chest and on her neck. "Ezra please." she begged. I softly kissed her lips as I unbuttoned her pants and pulled mine off. I woke up around 5 with Aria still sleeping next to me. it was a nice start to my day you could say. "Thanks I'll see you later." she said as she kissed my forehead and walked out. there she goes again. Practically wrecking my whole world. maybe this wasn't going anywhere. maybe she won't ever be ready. She's always been like a kid. maybe I should move on. Maybe call the girl from the bar. Yeah I think I will and make some plans with her for tonight. I called and she agreed. But after I hung up I felt weird. Caleb called he needed advice but then he asked if I was okay and I was just confused I just said "I think but I have to start dating again. Nothing's going to change with Aria. you and Hanna tried everything. I'll see you later." I had to get ready for my date then Aria called. of course here I am dropping all plans for her. I guess I cared too much.

ARIAS POV:
I left Ezras around 5 without any explanation. I wanted to keep things at this level atleast till I'm ready. We've been doing this for two or three weeks and I'm still not ready I think. when Ezra told me he met someone at the bar it hurt. but I know he loves me so I'm okay with it and I'm just going to tell him I don't want him seeing someone else but he'll think I'm crazy since we aren't dating. I don't know maybe we should meet at my house for dinner no ones home again for the weekend text him to come over. he replied right away. he'd be over in an hour. I had to hurry and go get some take out because God knows I can't cook. Ezra arrived and just walked in. I laughed I asked him to lock the door behind him. "Hey you hungry?" "Yeah yeah actually I am." He said he acted weird at first then warmed up. We didn't talk for awhile just ate. I stared at him. And realized loving him made life worth living and sometimes I don't want to live but he made it worth it. we almost had it all. loving is enough though. Finally he spoke up. "Aria do you want to get away with me for the weekend? I have this cabin and it'd be 48 hours of just you me and quietness without all the stress of the city." "Why should I go to this cabin of yours if we never went there when we dated?" he laughed "Aria. Just you and me. you know go up there and have a good time as friends." He joked and winked at me. "Ahh I see what you mean as friends there. Okay sure why not? What time should we leave tomorrow?" "I'll pick you up around 5 tomorrow and we will come back Sunday. I'll see you later." He smiled and kiss my forehead and just walked out. It was weird. No goodbye and he barely ate his food. Something was up and I knew he was distant about telling me something but so was I. But you don't just break the silence with oh hey Ezra I know we aren't dating but don't think I'm crazy here but I don't want you dating anyone while we have sex. I'll get it out. I'll tell him. I sat at the table thinking half the night until finally I threw away the food did the dishes and went upstairs and fell asleep. I had a nightmare. I couldn't remember it word for word or the details or the faces of the people in it. All I can remember is crying. There was something like in front of me that I wanted badly but not bad enough and it was basically mine the someone took it from me and gave it all it ever wanted and I never saw it again. it was weird. I woke up sweating and freaked out around 2 the next day. I took a shower and went downstairs and ate some food it was around 4:40 and I ran upstairs and realized I needed to pack. someone rang the doorbell. It was Ezra. I went and unlocked the door. "I'll be ready in a sec." I said happily. "Aria wait." He said but I just ran upstairs to my room to finish packing. When I finally zipped the suit case he walked in. "Aria. Can we talk?" "Yeah yeah Ezra sure downstairs." we sat at the table and finally he just flat out says it all. "Aria look. I've always wanted to get the hell out of rosewood and marry you and have kids with you. I wanted to build your dream house and grow old with you. I'm sorry weekends aren't enough I want forever. I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you." "Ezra... Why are you using past tense words?" "Because Aria our story is changing and I don't think you'll ever change. Look things can stay like this and I'll wait. I'll wait because you're the love of my life." "Then what's the problem? I'll get ready. I don't know how much longer. But what I do know is I can't stand here much longer not kissing you." I said "Aria look I'll wait but what happens if I meet someone along the way that wants to leave rosewood and maybe they'd give me everything you won't. Look I have to go. I'll see you later." He said as he kissed my forehead and shut the door and walked out. he builds me up then I fall apart. It's like knifes in my heart.

EZRAS POV:
after leaving arias I recreated my date. I was suppose to meet her in 20 minutes at the grill. When I arrived and I sat down she asked "I thought we couldn't hangout. I thought you were-" "no nope I'm free tonight. We're good. you hungry? I'm starving." I said happily and smiled at her as I picked up the menu and handed one to her.

HANNAS POV:
I called Aria to see if she'd like to hangout with me and Emily. We were going to go eat at the grille. I'm surprised she answered and agreed. She told me she had to talk to us about something. I went to pick her up. Emily ran inside to get us a table while me and Aria parked. Emily ran outside and asked Aria if she could walk back to the car and get her purse. Aria nodded and walked back to the car. "Hanna Ezra is in there with another women. I got a table on the other side of the restaurant but you can still see him if you look around make sure she doesn't sit towards them and stand on the other side of her walking in so she doesn't see." "Okay okay em. It's probably like a sister or friend. Or co worker. Chill." Aria brought Emily her purse. Me and Emily smiled big at Aria she looked at us like we were freaks. We got in and of course Aria beat us to sitting down. Surprisingly Aria didn't notice Ezra and that girl the whole night. When we got done Ezra walked out of the bathroom and ran into Aria. He apologized and stood there to stall so we didn't see what table he was going to. We rushed Aria out and got her in the car and drove off. Aria didn't see who he sat with on our way back she finally spoke up. "That was awkward. I feel so bad. He was eating dinner all alone." me and Emily looked at eachother. "Yep. So sad." I said as I kept driving. Aria needs to tell him she doesn't want him seeing other people and I mean fast.