the perfect mistake

Chapter 47: goodbyes hurt

ARIAS POV:
I've realized it's not the goodbyes that hurt its the flashbacks that follow. they hit you at random times. sometimes they hit me in the middle of class sometimes they hit me the moment I wake up or they keep me up at night. it's weird. I've been gone for three months now. it hurts it really does. I've talked to Ezra every chance I get. between classes, during lunch, during dinner, brushing my teeth, going bed. I just need to hear his voice before I go to bed. my roommate thinks it's cute how I have to hear his voice to fall asleep. tonight her friend is throwing a party. she invited me but I want to just stay here and talk to Ezra. Ezra told me I should go out with her. but he doesn't realize it's a party. Rebecca has gotten to know Ezra quite well over the past few months. he tells her to keep an eye on me and not to let those college boys come within a mile radius of me. I decided I would go to the party. but before I leave in going to talk to Ezra till she's ready to go. "hello?" a women said on the other end of the phone. "is Ezra there?" I said look in at the phone making sure it was the right number. "this is Ezra's number. who is this?" they wouldn't respond. "who is this!?" I asked once more. they hung up. instead of leaving in two days I decided I was going home on the first flight in the morning. I went to the party and couldn't stop thinking who was that women? was Ezra cheating on me? I started drinking. guys started to hit on me. when they would wrap me in their arms like they were going to kiss me I realized there's no other arms I wanna be in at the precise moment so I left the party early and went to the airport. I arrived in rosewood and caught a cab. I ran up the stairs to the apartment. I barged in. Ezra turned towards the door. he had a bag packed. "where were you about to go?" "aria I didn't expect you to be home two days early!?" "Ezra I called you and-" he cut me off "a women answered my phone." "we need to talk Ezra." I sat on the couch and sighed. "aria. I left my phone at the brew. in my office.. I guess my cook answered it." "how am I suppose to believe you when you've been nothing but distant on the phone since I left!?" "aria I would never cheat on." "Ezra don't!" I yelled. "aria. I can't live without you. I'm going to do everything in my power to prove it. i love you." I got off the couch and huffed a big breath. "I need some space im going to my moms for a few days." "aria please. Don't go." "Yes I can't sit here and fight with you right now." "Aria.." "Ezra either you leave or I do and since this is your apartment I'm leaving." I tried walking out the door. "we said no one leaves. we said no running." I walked back in. "gosh dang it Ezra." "get the box." he said. "I honestly can't deal with you right now please just get away." I got the box from the cabinet and opened it. I grabbed the letter Ezra had written. he grabbed mine. I went and sat in the tub and read it. "Aria, I'm sorry that this is our first fight. I'm sorry you ever had to read this. I'm sorry for creating the tears this time instead of wiping them. just know you are probably right. I finished reading the rest and found myself crying more over how beautifully written this was. I sat in the bath tub and just thought about everything. I finally got out and unlocked the door. I let out a loud sigh. "look I just gotta believe you because you're my husband and it's about trust and I don't know exactly if I can trust but I'm going to try. I can live without you." I saw his face sadden. "but I just can't imagine my life without you in it." he smiled I walked towards him and pulled him class. I wrapped my arms around his body and rested my head on his chest. "I've missed you." "I've missed you too." he said.