the perfect mistake

Chapter 4: never stop trying

EZRAS POV:
the day after her engagement party I sat on my couch in complete darkness. I drove downtown in the back of cab trying to drink the pain away because I didn't want to go home. because home isn't the same if I lost her. When she said she could live without me I knew I couldn't. I can't live and breath without her. I'd do almost anything for her to hold me and have her come back to me. That's all I felt inside. I mean that's all I was in her life. Was the darkness. I held her there for so long. But she made me see the light. she was my better half. I kept drinking. I'm finally over me. but I'm too late. as I thought that there was a knock on the door then it opened it was Aria. "How could you do that to me Ezra?" I set down my glass and stood up and walked near her. "Aria I'm sorry for all did last night for What I said and things I hid especially my feelings towards you. I can't imagine where I'd be if you weren't next to me all this time. that's why you came back. I'm lost without you and still crazy for you. I need you. everything I thought I needed to be because of my mother was all a lie. I'm sorry I know she offered you money before I was shot. the only thing that's been real in my life is what you and I have. I love you." "Ezra no please. I just came here to tell you the other night was a mistake. and that I am still marrying him." "but that was suppose to be us in a few years Aria." "I wanted it more than anything. But I belong to Andrew now. I had to get that off my chest. you no longer have my heart. and I don't want yours." She said those words I knew they hurt her to say because I saw the tear fall from her face but she smiled like she was happy to say it. she walked out and left.

ARIAS POV:
Andrew was waiting outside and I walked to the car. We only had 3 weeks left till our wedding and I was feeling sick and have been for the past few days. I asked if he could drop me off at hannas he agreed he walked me to her door and kissed me goodnight. I rang the door bell hannas mom answered a tear fell from my eye "is Hanna home?" "Yes sweetie go right upstairs. Are you okay? I heard what happened tonight." "Yeah yeah I'm fine I just was laughing really hard at something Andrew told me and I like jabbed myself with a pen it hurt. Thank you for asking." I ran up the stairs and jumped on hannas bed. And balled my eyes out to her. I told her the truth. told her everything about how me and Ezra made a pack and he was shot and I was going to break up with Andrew that night. she tried telling me I shouldn't let this get in the way of me and Ezra. that it didn't mean we couldn't be together. I told her it did and she just didn't say much. she asked if I still had the feelings for Ezra. but of course I did. I told her about tonight and the other night at the bar. she shed a tear for me. "Please keep this between us." "Of course Aria." "Thank you I'm going to bed now. Can I borrow some clothes?" "Yes of course 2nd drawer." she said I went in the bathroom got changed and fell asleep on hannas bed.

ANDREWS POV:
I decided to drive to the brew in the morning and talk to Ezra. he invited me into his office. "how may I help you Andrew?" "by leaving Aria alone. We are getting married and you're starting to become between us." "last time I checked she keeps coming to me. maybe you should be talking to her about this. are you worried she'll pick me?" "no she said yes to me so I think she picked me." "Well Aria and her friends are nothing without their little secrets." I rolled my eyes and walked out. I had rose woods annual ball to get ready for anyways I'd deal with him later.

CALEBS POV:
I drove to Ezra's because I needed to talk to him.I heard from the girls Ezra was shot a few weeks ago and I needed to make sure he was ok because I wasn't there for him after it happened. I got to Ezra's apartment and went and knocked on the door. Ezra opened he looked horrible. He was starting to sober up. "Ezra I heard you were shot." "Yeah what about it." "What did you do?" "Just I had this box in my pocket forever and they tried taking it. I wasn't letting them get it." "What box?" he glanced and pointed over to his night stand as he took another shot. I walked over there opened the bag and pulled out this little box with a ring in it. "Was this for Aria?" "Keyword was Caleb. She's moved on like you said. I just need to let her go. But every time she comes around I lose what I keep working for. She's like this distraction and drinking doesn't get rid of the thought of her because anytime I see her in way past wasted then I'm sober. I'm fully aware that she's there and I can't get her out of my mind. I loved her. Maybe I just need to move on. it's hard when I loved her to the point of insanity. I loved her more than I loved myself. I was so caught up thinking I owned her. when anything could just take her away."