the perfect mistake

Chapter 36: so this is how we end

EZRAS POV:
ten years from this day I was down the street. I ran into aria. she had three kids. they were all so beautiful they looked just like her. she had the job of her dreams and was happy. and she finally met the love of her life. well it was Avery. then I smiled and told her how happy I was for her. and continued on my way. I looked back to realize I could have been al those things for her. then I woke up. it was all just a dream and the plane landed. I got off the plane and grabbed my suitcase and went and caught a taxi and went straight to the brew to check on everything then went back home. when I sat on my bed I realized those three words that I said too much I guess weren't enough. I can't feel anything. I can't believe she cheated on me. I had to leave and fix my head. Where did I go wrong? I laid down finally but just looking up. I felt numb. all I could picture was aria cheating on me. she used me. I never planned on her ever doing that. maybe she fell in love with him and I was too late. Maybe it's my fault. I looked over and saw the empty pillow where aria used to lay. It's the same bed but it just feels bigger now. It feels empty, kinda like me.. Maybe I wanted her more. I never saw it coming. I wasted too much time. I'm looking back and I'm so sure I wanted her more. We made plans and dreams together. I wished I would've have noticed but I was too blind. My heart was too open for her. I wasted so much time trying to hangs her mind. but maybe I tried to convince myself that she loved me the same she did when she was 18. I don't need her anymore.

ARIAS POV:

I was confused as i looked around. I ran to the kitchen and didn't see ezra. Avery wasn't here either but i realized it was saturday. I ran to the closet. all of his clothes were gone except my favorite shirt. his hollis one. then eventually I found myself crying myself to sleep every night. I couldn't work right. weeks passed and I realized Ezra wasn't ever going to walk back in that door. finally after 2 months of waiting and listening to averys remarks. There was a reason I said I'd be happy alone. It wasn't because j thought I could be happy by myself it was because I thought if I loved someone and then it fell apart I might not make it. I've shaped my whole life around it and you can't survive the aftermath. my life kinda just spirals out of control. No I can't survive this kind of pain. Losing love is like having damage to part of your body. kinda like you are dying. The only difference is death ends but this doesn't. Heartbreak man this can last forever. I decided I wanted to wear his Hollis shirt to bed it had a note attached to it. "I thought you should keep it. goodbye aria, please don't come looking for me. i'm sorry i was never enough. i should've known im sorry for coming in between you and avery. have a good life with him i wish you two the best. I immediately freaked out and called avery to come over. i was crying sitting on my couch reading the note over and over. my mascara was running then avery walked in trying to comfort me. "what was this about?'' "i have no clue." he said taking the note reading it. "hmm seems he doesn't love you anymore." avery wrapped in his arms running his hands through my hair. "you did this." i shouted jumping up. "you told him i kissed you didn't you? oh my god Avery leave.. leave right now i can't do this."  i said running my hands through my hair pacing back and forth. "I love you." i ran to my closet and packed all my clothes in some suitcases. i called a taxi. I drove to my work. i got the security footage and drove to the airport. once my plane landed i rushed to ezras. i knocked on the door. no one answered. i got the key from under the mat and walked in. i saw Ezra sitting there he turned to see me. "ezra, im sorry. i didn't-" he cut me off "get out!" "no please i love-" he cut me off once more. "aria get out of my apartment now. i can't look at you and i don't want to hear your voice. i don't know why you even flew here." i felt the tears fall from my face as i threw the cd at him. "whats this?" "it explains everything.." i said as i walked out. I sat on the curb for awhile in the rain waiting for my taxi to show up. I sat with my head to my knees. Avery just randomly shows up. "What in the hell do you want you ruined everything. you took away the biggest part about me. I loved him with all my heart and now I can't. Now I have to just stop thanks to you and tell myself I hate him so I don't hurt as much." he walked near me and helped me up. "I love you..." he said. "there's nothing to love about me Avery so just save yourself and just leave. No aria if he doesn't want you I do. I know you felt it. we've done more than kissing-" "see stop right there I was hurt Avery. I didn't have feelings back then for you." "It felt right." he said as he grabbed my hands. "hey!" someone yelled in the distance. it was Ezra. he walked out. "I heard everything and I know everything." "Ezra go back inside I'm just coming back to get what is mine." Avery said. Ezra walked closer to Avery. I saw Avery walk towards him. I tried holding them apart. I was in the middle. Avery grabbed Ezra by the neck and started choking him. "Stop stop." I yelled. Ezra got out and tackled him and started punching him over and over. then Avery finally got some punches. I pulled Ezra away. he tried to keep going. I hugged him tightly so he wouldn't keep going. I pushed him against the wall of the building. "Stop. Please." "I'm sorry, I I just couldn't let him take you away from me." I looked up at him with tears in my eyes. "no one can take me away from you. you're all that matters in my life." I walked towards Avery and told him to leave. I went and sat back on the curb crying.