"To thine own self be true" Yellowstone fanfiction

chapter 3 "nose on the grindstone"

Months had passed. It was summer. My mother was gone and I was stuck raising two brats that weren't mine. Casey sucked the life outta me and Beth made me wanna pull my hair out of my scalp. Beth was a moody teenager. She had wants that I couldn't give and needs that I could give to a point. Casey was seven and had selective hearing. I swear if I had to tell him something more than three times I wanted to kill myself. Daddy had taken in a ranch boy named rip. Rip was a cutie. A little older than beth and a little younger than me. Beth had been sneaking out to see said boy. I wasn't happy. I had to put my foot down.

"Casey get away form the horses!" I called as I washed out a bucket on a burning hot day. "Casey! Get away form them horses before they stomp you!" I pulled my tank top over my face wiping off sweat. I looked over at Casey who was poking horses with a stick, but beyond Casey were my father's cowboys staring at my sweating body. "CASEY!!" i yelled. Casey jumped and quickly ran in the opposite direction from me giggling his head off. I watched the cowboys watch me as I filled a bucket with water. They whistled and hallard, that until Lloyd clapped his hands scaring the shit out of them. They jumped and continued on with their work. I giggled to myself as I picked up the bucket to give to the horses. As I turned around I noticed rip watching as he cleaned on the stalls. I walked past him flicking his forehead. "Keep your eyes on the prize little man"

"I...I wasn't lookin at nothin"

"You weren't looking at anything! Grammar is key rip. Just because you're a cowboy doesn't mean you can't be intelligent"

"Yes ma'am" he scuffled. I watched him. "Don't ever call me ma'am. I'm 21 I ain't 56" I smiled at him. He smiled back a bit. We both worked in quiet. Nothing to hear but the hot summer cicadas. "Them June bugs are loud huh?" Rip broke the silence. I looked at him with a weird look "the fuck you call them?"

"June bugs. They're June bugs"

"Cicadas."

"I don't speak Spanish"

I laughed loudly "they're called cicadas!"

"That sounds like a Mexican food. They're called June bugs"

"It's august!"

"But they come out in June!"
I shook my head. "whatever you say kid". I glanced up from pouring buckets of water into a trough. There stood beth smiling at rip in a flirtatious manner. Rips face turned abit red as he watched her. I sighed as a walked down the isle of the barn patting rips shoulders. "Don't get yourself stuck in mud if you can't dig yourself out rip" rip looked up at me. "I don't think fuckin the farmers daughter is a right idea" I say as I continued to walk down the isle. Beth scoffed. "Mind your damn business twitty dumb!!" I looked at her. "Keep talking like that beth and you'll end up with a mouthful of horse shit!" She rolled her eyes. "shut up!" She yelled. I reached down in a wheelbarrow that rip had filled with horse droppings. I took a handful with my gloved hand. Beth looked up at me with her eyes widened. "I'll tell dad!"

"Tell em' bitch!" I chucked the handful of feces at her as she ran down the drive. I smirked looking back at rip who was laughing to himself. "Don't let her get you in trouble June bug. It'll only ruin your life" I hung the bucket on the wall before walking out. I detached the velcro on my gloves before slipping them off then shoving them in my back pocket. I smiled big as my boyfriend Robert got out of his old beaten up truck. "Hey beautiful!" He shouted. "The hell you doin here!? You said you had business to take care of!!" I jogged to him as he picked me up in a hug. He chuckled kissing my face "i do. I brought it with me" I turned his head. I look over to see his youngest sister Monica shyly hiding behind his truck. I smirked. "Are you here to beat up casey?"
She let out A small giggle and nodded. "We'll come on now!" I pulled his hand walking out to the pasture where Casey is bugging my father. Monica ran ahead of us bolting in Casey's direction. My father looks up from his house as Casey is tackled to the ground. He looks over at me. "Hey there son" he says to Robert. Roberts smiled and nodded his head. "Good afternoon sir!"

"Connie did you throw handfuls of shit at your sister earlier?" My father questioned sternly. "Yes sir I did"

"Was it necessary?"

"Yes sir it was" my father shrugged. "Good enough" he groans as he walks his horse back to the stable handing it off to rip. "What's for dinner!?" Casey asked me as he sits on Monica. "My foot in your ass" I say as I gently kick him in the chest knocking him off her. Monica gets into pod him kicking his ass. I laughed.at the sight as I walks with Robert passed them. We both snook into the back of the barn for a little sesh. He grabbed my hips pulling me close against him kissing me deeply. "Hell twitty I didn't know you liked that dark meat" I looked over at one of the cowboys named Nick. Nick was the biggest dick you'd ever meet. He picks on me any chance he gets. Reason being is all because he wants to fuck me, not to sound conceited but...who doesn't. I glared at him up and down. "Mind your own fuckin business nick"

"You are my business. Don't you wanna tell your little Indian friend what we did last Friday?"

"Shut up nick! Eat shit!" Robert looked at me. "What did you do?" I shook my head "nothing he's making shit up. Go find your dick nick!"

"Why baby? My dick was up in you last Friday!" He laughed obnoxiously. Robert shoved me off him as Nick walked away. "He's lying! Rob! Stop!" I followed Robert as he walked away from me "I didn't do anything! He was drunk as hell! He put his hands on me! Why do you think he has a black eye!"

"Bullshit! You're always around them boys for a reason!"

"Well yeah!! I work with them!"

"You're a fucking whore just say that!"

"You're fucking insecure just say that Robert! I'm not a fucking whore!" I shoved him angrily. "I would never cheat on you! Ever! I would never!!" I yelled as I shoved him harder. Robert gripped his fist and clocked me in the mouth. I stumbled back holding my blood that was dripping from my face. He got closer to me. I anxiously backed away from him until I back was up against the barn wall. He held me by the collar of my shirt yelling into my face. "I don't want to see your slut fucking face ever again you hear me!?" He smacked me with a closed fist. "Hear me!?" His face was so close to mine I can feel his angry hot breath on my skin wet from blood. "...g...get..I..off me..you...you..cr..crazy son of a bitch!"

"What are you gonna do sick your daddy on me?" He chuckled as he shoved me.ro the ground. He walked out Infront of the barn while I sat on the ground behind. "Monica! Let's go!" I hear him call.
"Awe!" She responded sadly. I stared at the blood in my palm shocked that a man could do such a thing to a woman. I stood up spitting on the ground. I looked up seeing rip, lee and Casey watching. They were angry, Casey was scared. I sighed. "Fuck you looking at? Casey go wash up for dinner!" Casey scurried at my words. Lee stood angrily. Ready to blow a house down. "Why did you let him do that to you"

"Lee you mind your business! It ain't your relationship so quit stickin your nose in!"

"This is serous twitty! I'm telling dad!" I grabbed lee by the collar of his shirt. "You ain't telling nobody!! This is my business! Not yours lee! I swear to God if you open your trap I'm gonna kill you! You understand me!?" Lee gulped. "...y..yeah I understand you" I let him go aggressively. "Good" I wiped the blood from my face walking back to the house.

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