"To thine own self be true" Yellowstone fanfiction

chapter 43 "desperado"

As drunk as I was I shoved my way through those office doors. I ran up the stairs listening closley. I hear yelling, screaming and threatening. Beth was in distraught. Without any caution I burst threw them doors. With my Pistol out, I walked in shooting a blaze. Whoever I saw I shot at. Beth's screams were horrific. Every shot I fired missed the targets I aimed at. I was wasted. Behind me shots ran out. I turned around as I kneeled behind a table to keep me covered. It was rip. Rip held out his gun shooting threw glass, shooting through bodies. Beth's screams became louder. As rip confronted the last living man I crawled to her. Her face was misshaped. Blood poured out of her nose and mouth. Gashes imprinted on her forehead and cheeks. She was screaming. Losing her mind. "Beth! Beth! It's me! It's Twitty! Beth!!" Beth continued to scream even after the men were dead. She hit me. He pounded her fists against me. I pulled away to give her space. "The fuck are you doing Twitty! Help her!" Rip shoved past me grabbing beth by her arms. He pulled her in tightly. He spoke to her "beth! Beth listen to me baby! Listen. It's me! It's rip! Bethany!" As he tried to control her I stepped towards the bodies. I pulled their ski masks off their faces. I didn't recognize them. I stood with my foot on ones throat moving the head around with my toe to get a good look at him. I glanced back over at beth who was hyperventilating. She was sobbing so hard she couldn't comprehend any words. "Beth please! Listen to me! Beth!" Rip shouted. His hands gripped her sore bruised cheeks. "I love you beth! I love you!" He repeated. Why? I thought. What for? You fool. Beth's body sunk into his. His hands held her against him like she belonged there. I looked away. I couldn't bare looking at them. Instead I called my father. Telling him to come quick there was an emergency. My father said he was on his way, he would be here quickly with my brothers. As we waited beth stood up. She was no longer crying. Her face was puffy and numb. She grabbed an ashtray that had to weigh at least 10 pounds. With the ashtray she smashed the skull of the man I stood above. His brain matter filled my face. I felt nothing. Neither did she. She walked her way back over to rip, to rightfully claim her spot on his arms. That until she gasps in horror. Slowly she pulled open rips shirt, there it was revealed rip was shot twice in his torso. She looked at me. "Help him" she whimpered. "Don't just stand there! Help him!" With zero emotion I held my hands around his wound. With no sympathy I squeezed the bullet out of his skin. He moaned in groaned in pain. He stared me in the eyes as he said "Jesus fuckin Christ! Ain't you gonna wait for the doc?" He grumbled. I reached to the floor to pick up Beth's Tito's bottle. After taking a swig I splashed it on the wound. He yells in pain as he leans back in the chair. "Help him!" Beth screamed. "Would you shut the fuck up! What does it look like I'm fuckin doing Bethany!" She shut her mouth as rip did too. Rip was pale. He was losing blood quick. He draped his arm over his sweating forehead. "Holy shit" my father says behind me. I keep my focus on rips wound. My eyes shift to look at his face. Back and forth my attention was torn between stoping the bleeding and losing the one thing I love in this life. "Daddy" beth spoke breathlessly. My father took beth into his arms. He didn't let go for a long time. "How's it looking twitty?" The vet behind me questioned. "I can't get the bleeding to stop" I spoke quietly to him. The doctors brows furrowed at the sound of my worried voice. I'm usually so assertive, very sure of myself. It may have been the quick heartbreak I felt moments ago, or even the boos. "You did good. I'll take it from here. Let's get him home boys" the doctor quoted as he helped rip up. "Let the doctor look at you next beth" dad said as he rubbed her back. "N..no! I'm...I'm going where rip goes!" She followed the doctor out to the cars. I stood and stared at the dead bodies soaking up the floor. "You fuckin reek of alcohol Twitty" my father said with heavy disappointment in his voice. "And?' I say as I sat on the desk where my sister was assaulted. I stared at the bodies like it was a regular Saturday night. "And you need to fix yourself! You're an embarrassment! Grow up Twitty! You're a mother for fuck sakes!" I laughed aloud. "Oh yeah you're one to talk! Mr father of the year award! Mind your business old man" I hopped off the desk stepping past him. "Your sister could of died. What if rip wasn't here? H
Those me would've killed you both. You need to man up twit"

"I have manned up! I've been more of a man than anyone else here!! I raised them kids! I showed up here in a fucking heart beat! I was here in two minutes!! I was here the moment I got a text! Where were you!? Why didn't she call you huh!? Oh that's right! You were hardly there! Don't tell me to man the fuck up!" Casey walked between us. "I think it's time I get you home huh Twitty?" Casey spoke softly. "Now that's a man" I say as I pointed to Casey. "You can take some fucking lessons! Maybe f I raised you you be a fucking man!" I spit to his feet. He shuffled towards me. "If you weren't my fucking daughter I would kill you right now"

"I ain't your fuckin daughter daddy! So kill me! Fucking kill me!"

"Maybe I fucking should Twitty!"

"Enough!" Casey yelled. "Twitty your drink. Dad you're overwhelmed. Let's go and let these guys clean this mess up and head home"

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I stood in the doorway of what was our bedroom. Beth sat on the edge of what was our bed. She stared at Rips lifeless body as he healed within his slumber. She glanced over at me then Stood up. She hung her head as she hugged herself to the door. "I love him Twitty" she spoke. "He loves me. You can't have him" she whispered very calmly. She was very drained. "Have him" I whispered. "have him but don't let my daughter see. Don't ruin what my daughter thinks rip and I are. Do what you want with him but don't break her heart"

"I think you already have that under control" beth said as she cocked her head towards Jennings bedroom door. There the tiny girl stood. Only her eyes appeared from the door. As she saw my figure she vanished into the bedroom. I released a sigh. "That's it" I say under my breath. I shove open her door slamming it behind me. "I'm only gonna tell you this once Jennings! You're gonna come out from underneath that damn bed now!" I put my foot down. No more baby shit. There was no response. "Now!" I yelled. Quickly the little girl pulled herself out from her rock. She stared up at me with sad eyes. I kneeled to the ground at her level. "You know mommy had to do what I had to do. When you are getting hurt and you're scared what do you. Do?" Jennings looked down. "Stand up for myself" she said softly. I gulped down my tears as I spoke. "Right. That's exactly what mama did. Mama had to hurt a very very mean man who was trying the kill mama. Now... tonight... Daddy was doing the same thing .. Someone tried to hurt daddy... They tried to hurt daddy real bad... But daddy stopped them in time. But right now daddy is really hurt really bad... Daddy is going to need some rest for awhile... So it's just you and me baby... Do you understand what I am saying?" Jen nodded. She looked nervous "mama missed you so much honey... I'm sorry you saw something you shouldn't have.... Mama still loves you" Jennings stood with understanding. Her brain understood exactly what I was saying. Jenny suddenly leaped into my arms. Her small hands gripped my shirt. She let out teeny tiny sobs. "I want my daddy" she cried. I swaddled the small child in my arms. "Daddy is gonna be okay... He just has a booboo. He needs to take alot of naps for it to heal okay?" Jenny nods as she wipes her snot on her arm. "I love you mama" she spoke softly. I smiled slightly as tears streamed down my cheeks. I pulled her small head into the crook of my neck. My lips kiss her temple repeatedly. "Gosh I love you darling...I love you to death no one is gonna hurt me or you or daddy ever. I mean it. Ever."....