Payton
I don't give my self time to think about what happened. When Matti pulls into his driveway, I run upstairs grab my hoodie and call Ava.
"Ave, let's go to a bar."
"What? You have never had a sip of alcohol in your life. You swore you'd never because of how your father turned out."
"I don't care. Let's go. Please." I sound so desperate right now but I need a distraction and fast.
"I'll be there in 5"
"Thank you." and then I hang up. I go to the front door to wait for her and yell out "I'm going out with Ave! Be back later!"
When I walk out of the door I see her car round the corner and can't help but smile. It's been forever since me and her hung out. Even if i'm going to be doing something i've never done and probably shouldn't, i'll be with Ave so it's gonna be fun. She pulls up in front of Matti's house and I climb in.
"Is everything okay?" She asks almost immediately
"Everything great. Let's gooo" She gives me a 'I don't believe you but whatever' look and I ignore it. She drives to the nearest bar and guides me inside.
"Payton. Are you sure this is what you want to do?"
"Positive. Now let's drink!" She gives me a tight smile and a quick nod before turning to the bartender.
She orders us drinks but I don't even know what they are. I don't really care either. I just chug it till it's gone and ask for another one. "Payton, slow down. You don't know what you're doing."
"Avaaaa don't ruin this for me" I've only had like 2 drinks but i'm already feeling fuzzy. I guess this is why you should slow down, or maybe it's just because I don't know how to handle my drinks. "Bartender" I hit my hand on the bar "Another drink please" I give the bartender my best smile and wait for my drink.
I immediately gulp it down and ask for another. I look over and notice that Ava is just watching me. She isn't even drinking. "Aveeee drink uppp"
"No. I'm driving"
"Lameee" I definitely am getting close to not being able to control myself. "Another one please!"
"Payton..."
"Nooo shhhh" I hold my hand up and stop her from talking
The bartender hands me another drink and I chug this one down too. "Payton.. Does Matti know you're here?"
The mention of his name makes me realize I miss him."Mattiii! I love Matti! I should call him" I'm starting to slur on my words
"I don't think that would be a good idea"
"Shhh he'll love it." I grab my phone and hit his contact. He answers on the first ring.
"Payton?"
"Hiiiiii Mattiiiii!"
"Are you drunk?"
"Nooooo"
"Where are you?"
"I'm out with Ave"
"Can I talk to Ava for a second baby?"
"I guesssss" I hand my phone to Ava "He wants to talk to youuuu" They talk for a few minutes and Ava is nodding her head. I don't hear much but I hear a "See you soon" come out of Ava's mouth.
"Wanna dance?"
"No. Stay at the bar."
"Don't be lameee. I wanna danceeee!!" I get up from my seat and run to the dance floor. I'm dancing by myself for quite a bit before I feel strong arms take ahold of me.
"Payton" It's Matti
"Heyyyyyy Mattiii" I slur while dancing on him
"Let's go home baby"
"But I wanna dance" I give him my best pouty face to try and convince him to stay.
"You've been dancing for a bit, you must be tired" Now that he mentions it, I am a bit exhausted. I take his hand and lead him to where Ava is sitting. "I took a cab here. Okay if I ride with you?" His question is directed at Ava.
"Yeah. Let's go" She responds as she stands up to walk out
Matti pulls me with him and keeps a strong hold on my hand so I don't get lost. He opens the door to the backseats and helps me in. When he sits down I scoot over and lay my head on his shoulder. "Why did she want to go to a bar?" Matti asks Ava
"I don't know. She wouldn't tell me. She just wouldn't let me say no." Ava responds
"I don't want to be like my dad." I mumble before drunken tears spill out of my eyes "I don't want to be like him at all."
"What are you talking about?" Matti questions me "You're nothing like your father."
"He was gonna kill me." I slur as more tears run down my face "He was gonna kill his own daughter." The last thing I remember before passing out was Matti shushing me and telling me reassuring words in my ear.
***
I wake up with a gigantic headache. I groan as I open my eyes. I'm in the guest room. Apparently I didn't sleep in Matti's bed. I'm not in my hoodie and leggings anymore. I was put into some shorts and one of Matti's t-shirts.
I'm starting to remember what happened yesterday and I throw my head back down on the pillow. There's a knock on the door before it opens. "Payton?"
"Hi, Emily" I sit up and give her the best smile I can muster. "What's up little one"
"Matti sent me to see if you were awake. Mommy made us breakfast."
"Can you tell Matti I need to see him for a second?"
"Sure!" She runs out of the room and down the stairs while yelling "Matti! Matti! Pay Pay needs to see youuuu!"
I silently laugh and lay back down covering my face. A few minutes later my door opens again and this time it's Matti instead of Emily. "What's up baby"
"Why do I feel like death."
"That would be because you decided to have like 8 drinks without stopping or slowing down."
"I'm sorry"
"Don't apologize. You can explain why though"
"I don't even know if i'm being honest. All my life I swore I would never take a sip of alcohol. I refused to be anything like my father. He was an abusive alcoholic and I would rather die than even risk being like that. After he almost killed me though.." Tears start to form in my eyes as I remember the events that took place "all I wanted to do was stop feeling. I didn't care how. I just needed it to be gone." I cover my face with my hand so Matti can't see the tears streaming down my face.
He pulls my hand away from my face and pulls me in for a hug. "You could have come to me. I could have helped you feel better without involving alcohol."
"I don't go to people for help."
"Maybe you should start" He hugs me a little tighter and kisses my head "As your boyfriend I want to be be there for you. I want to help you deal with your emotions in a healthy way. Not through drowning it out with alcohol. I just need you to let me in."
I love you. "I don't know how." I'm still crying but the tears have slowed.
"It's okay. You'll get there."
I don't know when it happened but Matti has turned into my favorite person.
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Easily broken
RomanceEver since middle school Payton White has been basically invisible to everyone and she likes it that way. That is until someone bumps into her and tries to get Payton to stop hiding. Will she resist? Will it work? Will it be enough?
